A long time.

I guess its been a long time since ive blogged, and the =( and argh don't really count as a proper blog entry. Haha, in case you were wondering, you beautiful beautiful kind caring souls, i'm fine. haha, not the best, but i'm fine. =)

I guess its juss the stress test that's getting the best of des.
Its been a long time since i've actually done the things i've used to do, like listen to my collection of keating songs. Which is my destress-or, honestly. I was listening to one song that day and i realised when i listen to his songs, i feel cosy, in my living room, as if i'm in my warm blanket, drinking hot cocoa, during winter. I love that feeling. I miss thinking bout stuff.

Its really not a nice period of time. The stress of having no time, and have bad grades. Everyone seems cranky. Even i've changed so much in this past few months, more irritable, impatient. Easily angered. Partly becos of stress, partly becos i've allowed myself to change. Maybe to be accepted? To be respected? To fend off the stress that makes me seem weak? To stop the tears that follow whenever i'm stressed? I dunno.

But things have been changing in the past few days -- God's been reminding me to be nice.
That's not easy. Trust me. haha
With the people you meet.
Its like. OOOOOOH!! -FROWN-

Oh well, God be exalted.
Help me Daddy.

=) I'm Missin' You.

:(

ARGH.

confounded.

Isn't the modus operandi of a Certain Someone astounding?

The way He does things, just... throws you off your feet. His timing, the swiftness to act, or the way He waits, for the precise moment. He's amazing. I don't understand Him at all.

I just read a few blogs, and i'm really quite awed by His strange manner. The way He forms our friendships. The way He makes the impossible possible, so that our classmates will know He IS God.

I don't know how He works. I don't get His timings. I don't get why He allows things to happen that we don't like or understand. Why let Job go through all that he did. I don't get Him at all. Frankly, I think He is rather peculiar. I don't understand why He does things that, superficially, seem to harm us. But i guess that's becos He sees through the superficiality, and sees the eternal, and the potential.

And the better plan He has for us.

I don't understand Him, at all. But i do know He's ways are higher than our ways. His thoughts, higher than ours. I know He holds the future in His hands. I know He gives and takes away. I know He makes all things perfect in His time.

In His time in His time.
He makes all things beautiful
In His time

Lord please show me everyday
As You're teaching me Your ways
That You'll do just what You say
In Your time