Friday 30 September 2005

The one about life.

Life. Heh, its a funny thing. Its a weird thing.

So many things can happen in one's life.
a) you are living a life of death.
b) you are living a life, of life.
c) you are dying to live.
d) you are living to die.
e) you are dying to die.
f) you believe in life after death.
g) you believe in death.

And you get the idea.

Everyone leads different lives.
We have different responsibilities. Different outlooks to life, different troubles, and joys. We have different families, stresses. Different abilities to love life, and live life. Different aspirations and disappointments.
Everyone leads different lives.

BUT, everyone leads a life.
Everyone has responsibilities, an outlook to life. Everyone has troubles, and joys. We have families, and stresses. We have an ability to love life, and live life. We have aspirations and disappointments.
Everyone leads a life.

We aren't that different. We all have a destiny in Christ. We all have big destinies and plans that God wants us to fulfil. If only we wouldn't indulge ourselves, with ourselves.

Life
Is fleeting fast.
Man and Woman
knows too
much, too
little.

like a globe
of white
of specks
of smallness

life.

Monday 26 September 2005

the finally one..

i'm listening to keating songs.

again.

I haven't listened to any music at all the past few week. Heh, and i'm just like. melting. I'm considering not listening to any other secular artiste anymore. HAHA, kidding, but just, well, the julianna theory and these other rock bands are getting to me. I'm starting to really want more of quiet reflective songs... THAN ones where the drums come right up to my ears and blow them silly, like dynamites tied to a railroad track in looneytunes cartoons. Ronan Keating and Steven Curtis Chapman are like my fav secular and contemporary christian, respectively, artistes. They are like the best. Ultimate.

They say the types of songs you listen to tell about who you are. So when your preference of songs changes, does that mean you change too? I've gotta admit i've changed so much. My priorities, the way i view life now, the way i view myself, the way i view others.

Honestly, i've typed and retyped this entry so many times now. Haha, it started out abit rubbishy, then started to get very sad, then reflective. Haha, Keating's working his magic. Haha, its a desire to be able to sing like these people, to have something that can touch the heart of Father, and to touch others.. I mean, i dun wanna be a replica of them. Just their talent. In someway. Heh..

SIGHS. there's so much i wanna say.. so, i'll have a compromise and do this from col's blog instead. haha

1 have you ever been late for school?
yes. 5 times by my stupid sch.

2 did you do any good deeds for the past 1month?
yea i guess. I bought myself a Justice League VCD that i really wanted. HAHA. kidding

But yea.. good deeds. prob.

3 how will you celebrate your birthday next year?
I just had my bday!! Next year? Hopefully my future bunk mates dun sabo me.

4 do you love chalets?
Depends on who. Btw, why is chalet spelt chalet and not sharlei?

5 describe you hair?
thick. black. wished i was a brunnete tho.

6 if you could have your hair dyed?
na, as much as i wld love to.

7 did you eat breakfast today?
Yea..

8 what will you do this year?
what kind of qns is this? this year's coming to an end. NEXT.

9 who was the last person you met?
my parents

10 love someone?
yea, alot of ppl.


11 hate someone?
no one's reach that level for me yet. i mean, there are some who i rather'd not be in the same room as but hey, i dun hate them.. that's too strong.

12 why do you think the zebra is black & white in colour?
wad kind of qns is this? haha, k. I'll ans. Cos God loves black and white.

13 what is your favourite colour?
Black and white. Note above ans. Thus i'm god. haha. KIDDING. IM SORRY GOD! k i like black white, lush green, dirty green, bluish grey.

14 what do you notice in the same sex?
i never notice what i notice. this qns is too vague.

15 what's the best dream you had?
FINALLY a beautious (HAHA) qns. I have lots of dreams that I love, but too many. haha.. one i liked was the x-men one i blogged about last time.

16 where did you go today?
no where,but i did go to sleep last night.

17 what colour is your computer?
white

18 is trust or love more important?
both. love is trust. how can you not have either..

19 if you could have a wish wat would u wish for?
i liked col's ans.. cos i wld have said the same.." for more wishes"

20 one sport you hate?
hate them all. I like swimming tho.. THO i can't swim.

21 when was the last time you cried?
one or 2 weeks back.

22 how is the weather now?
nice.. lazy afternoon

23 when is bedtime for you?
varies.

24 the best survey you did?
the once-a-month ones at evenin service!

25 the worst?
those whose results are random. cheatmy time.

26 how are you feeling now?
slightly peachy, slightly reflective.

27 how often do you visit the hairdresser?
i call him uncle, not hairdresser, but when i think my hair is long or thick. LIKE NOW.

28 how do you handle people who are proud?
expose their false humility either subtly or directly, yea i'm mean. bring me to court.

29 who made you smile today?
the boy in the mirror. HAHA. k. ronan keating and his music. :)

30 favourite place?
my room, my house, my kitchen ESP fridge, and erm.. bed. :))))))))))

Saturday 17 September 2005

The Day God Gave the World abit of trouble, the day i was born.

18 years ago today, i was born.

18 years and close to one day from when i was born, I'm rushing to write and entry before the day turns to 18th Sept.

I enjoyed today alot.. Last night, before my birthday came, i was wondering if God would take me home the minute before i turned 18. I mean, i've prayed a prayer many times when i was young; that i would die before i turned 18, so no NS. I was so scared God would take me home, i asked for forgiveness for the sins i've commited. haha..

OH KAY... i'm really trying to rush.

Anyways, a big thank you to everyone who wished me, early or late... btw, only 3 ppl were early/ontime/neartime. haha.. these are the bestest ppl in the world. hahahaha. no kidding. haha.. the rest who wished me are nice too k.

To angel,col, es foong, joel, john, joy (its in alphabetical order!) thank you so sososososoososos much for the posters and the cd. i was making a casual remark to myself that day, that i wanted to get posters for my room.. just a fleeting thot.. but hey, God heard it. And so you guys did too. Thank you so much.. its a beautiful gift. Thanks for the cake.. haha.. ernie. haha.. i like ernie. is that his name? i dunno. haha

To gab, thank you thank you for the card and the keychain.. its really nice. haha.. and thank you for rmbring it! haha.. i was counting on you to msg me la!on time! hahahaha.. kidding. but seriously thank you..

To everybody else.. thank you for spending time with me and forcing me to dance the para para thing, which thankfully i didn't. haha.. to joash, sheena, jason tan, declan, matthew, brian, fabian, sarah, charis.. thank you for the fun birthday!!

I HAVE 4 MORE MINUTES TILL 18TH!!!

Thank you those who wished me.. jessie all the way from aussie. haha.. sharon, qiuyi.. ADD YOUR NAME IF YOU WISHED ME or going to.. (muahahaha)... cos i got no time to type..

THANK YOU ALL OF YOU!!! you make me feel very blessed..

I've got to say this as an ending note.. its is with a tinge of sadness i enter my 18th year on earth.. cos i like the no. 17 alot, and i love being 17. But thank God we grow older.. haha

THANK YOU GOD!!! for loving me and givign me wad i asked for.. thanks for makign the edge service power. You're awesome.