Heya PPl!! Camp after tmr.. so fast huh?

Okay.. well.On fri we went Msia. A p3 outing with the er jie.. hahaha... so funny so funny.. estehr brought joel and me (as we waited for john) to padini.. SOOO BIG... we walked so many rounds couldn't find anything.. then esther passed us a few shirts to try.. and from that moment on we began to find alot of stuff and we just kept trying. hahah..we just took the last 2 dressing rooms for our own trying pleasure.. ahhaha..

then john arrived and we continue in padini awhile more.. ahahh.. then we went lunch, then went to john's mom childcare.. then back to shop!! this time we went OP.

At first we were like bored bored one.. everyone tired already..but we realise 20% discount. Hahaha.. we went in also abit cautious. However, when we tried our first shirt, this salesgirl was really good man.. She doesn't look like lah.. but she was so friednly.. she totally hyped us up. That was the climax of the trip man.. we were NUTS..

Just trying shirt after shirt after shirt.. and she's commenting about us.. ahhah.. there were 3 dressing rooms.. the 4 of us just hogged it. And we kept swapping shirts to try.. the P3 lah.. and the different sizez and all.. We even took a photo in front of everyone and when we hadn't paid for our shirt.. hahah... good thing we bought it in the end.

Well... the salegirl left for lunch.. the other ppl not as nice.. anyways.. we have similar shirts! hahah.. okay that was fri.. we rushed back to my home for divisional meeting.. then i rushed out after to stay over.. So cool!! Can i stay over again?!?!

Well... today sunday.. i was small gp. hahah.. so cool.. su linn Gp. Hahah.. pretty fun. Wah.. busy day. Climax was at afternoon.. like 4 ppl talking to me at the same time. I was pretty mean lah.. every time i get irritated my mouth becomes motormouth.. start with my sacarstic remarks. Very bad.. still can't control tt well.

Anywas.. we went estehr foong's house after tt to watch vcd.. so cool. I love it.. the passion. Man.. God.. blow us away in camp!!! Anyways.. after tt we all napped--girls in esther foong's room and john and i in living room. Though i didn't get much sleep. Terrible headache.. hahah..

Anyways.. i was in pretty terrible state. I was highly irritatable.. with myself.. Dinner was okay.. hahaha.. alot more lah.. but then too much to type.. summary? God is GOOD. You better believe it.. you better expect. Camp's going to be awesome.

Operation Destructo Oso Has fulfilled its purpose. Oso is gone-so. Just like that.
GOD IS STINKING GOOD!! WHo rocks? He does.. Who rocks? He does!! Hey God whoo hah hah! Woo hah hah!!

Okay.. this is a gratitude list. Here goes.. and the emmy goes to..(Alphabatical order or at least i try)

GOD. -- He has given me so much peace. So much help.He is THE man.. He rocks. He's awesome. He really made things work out. He honors you. He never gives up on you.And He just keeps speaking to you. WOW!

Angel -- She and her gut feeling of my papers.. Arh.. thank you for noticing my papers.. really encouraging to know ppl DO use the timetables i send out.

Blogger family -- Thanks for putting up with my long entries as i de-stress during my study breaks. Hhaha.. which are like.. forever?You've guys been awesome.. thanks for praying. Which i am giving the benefit of the doubt.

Da Ge -- The one who i think suffered the most during this period with me and BECAUSE of me. Hahah.. sorry.. for the late night ," Da ge, pray for me yah.. i'm scared.." msges amongst other types of msg.. Thank you for your daily prayers..Thank you for trusting I studied when no one did. Thank you for putting up with an over reacting Siao di! You are the most awesome da ge!!Love you soo much..(eeeee.. Yes.. I'm mushy.. I realised too). He also having his papers.. pray yah? * Bows and say, "Thank you dai kor. I'm so grateful I could cry." Bows again.*

Esther tan aka Er jie -- She has been such a support, always making sure i study, and msg me at times to cheer me on. Think she has been faithfully praying for all the os students.. not only me.She rocks..

Esther Wong -- She's another one who prayed alot too. I think lah! thank you!! She's having papers.. rmb her in prayers.

Esther Foong -- "Study when you have the chance to brother.." Hahah.. thank you esther.. she has been jia you-ing me alot.. really appreciate it.So sweet right? Stay happy yah?

Eric Loh -- This guy.. really at times i really wanted to cry because of him. So strict.. to the extent there was one time i felt so terrible.Didn't tell anyone..save God.But it was then i realised eric's concern. He opens his house, teaches us, worrys for us.Thank God for eric. Okay.. its abit emotional coz i'm missing him already!

Fellow O students -- Thank them for being worried!! Hahah.. They have been a blessing.. saw how we supported each other and studied. So blessed by them. Especially Joel.. was so blessed that day by his action.. not to me.. but the decision he made.Thank you.Pray for them, some still have papers.

Jason Oon -- My ultimate "You should be at home studying" machine. He just reminds me to study, but in a nice light hearted way. And he keeps counting down for me. Really perks you up. Superblous guy. =)

Qiu Yi aka Chief -- Another emotional thank you coz i miss her. She has been wonderful. She also knows what paper i take and i know she prays for me.She just spurs me on with sms every time she arranges net meeting.Thank you man..I miss you Chief! *Salutes*

Whoever else who has been praying.Thank you If i missed you out.No ill intention.

....As they sailed he fell asleep.A squall came down on the lake, so that the boat was being swamped, and they were in great danger.....He got up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters; the storm subsided, and all was calm....

...A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped..... He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet! Be still!".Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.....

.....Without warning, a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat....He replied," You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Then He got up and rebuked the winds and the waves and it was completely calm....

Be still. Be still. Be still.

For those of you worrying out there. Be still.

For those of you questioning out there. Be still.

For those of you that are all drained out. Be still.

For those of you weeping, crying, tearing out there. Be still.

For those of you busy in your work. Be still.

Be still and know that I am God.

Amen.
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Yes.. yes.. i realised that somehow alot of these words can be seen in my da ge's blog.Arghh.. I'm really not trying to copyright. But.. i was.. asking God just now. What do i do? And He brought me to this passage. I didn't realise that it was so similar to the da ge's blog until i went over to read. I'm not trying to poach customers. But..its Godly timing is it? Hahah. more like conincidence.But nevertheless... its time i be still.

Tah DAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Another entry..

I'm writing this in the midst of my study break. Woke up today ready to go to sch, and i checked my entryproof before leaving the house. Not something that i always do.. but thank God!!! Because i realised my paper in the afternoon.. God is SOOOOO good... so i could sleep to 8.3o, then study till 10. (Now's 10.25am). And i finished highlighting my whole chap. BIG chap!! hahahah..

Well.. I shall resume my studying in awhile; tighten up my chaps abit!!

Okay.. this 4 days? God has simply blown my mind away. I'm telling you.. He is so good i can't stand it!!! ahahah...NO.. i mean...ARGHHHHHH.. GOD YOU ARE AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!!!!!!!!

hahah... well on fri we had combined net with eric. I was supposed to do praise and esther tan worship.. but eric started with this really 'worship' tune. I didn't know how to start my praise.. so i went.."erm..we'll pray before we start!! Daniel pray!!".

Hahah.. so daniel prays this really 'worship' kind of prayer.. and wow!! after the prayer we decide that we should just go into worship. Saves me the trouble. Well.. God kept speaking and impressing stuff on our hearts.. and daniel and esther both just prayed and spoke what they felt God was saying. And it was awesome!!!!!

God showed up.And the gist of it was.. he's re-focusing us. He's bringing us back to the basics.. that was what he kept nudging me about the whole week. Even at the edge.. "REFOCUS REFOCUS. GOD SHOULD BE FIRST GOD SHOULD BE FIRST".

Not strange we have all the ppl speaking of true worship. Joy, Elvin, Jason,other different ones.. True worship!! God's wanting to bring us back. He's calling us back. Its as if He's saying," I have need for vessels who would be set apart to be holy. For i deserve all worship."

For if we DON't give Him our worship, the rocks would cry out!!! Because He deserves it. Because He deserves it. Because its what we have to do.Because its what we need to do.

AMEN.

Okay.. going back to my geog.. continue praying for me ppl.. I have papers till wed. The other O students have until fri. Pray for them too. Jen and Dage also have exams pray for them too!! Esther wong too.

AMEN!

FINALLY!!!!!!! I can blog. Have been waiting all day!! Hahaha.. crazy right me? Oh well.. let's just move on..shhh.. don't tell ppl okay? Its OUR secret.. you tell ppl i don't friend you.. and i call my friends not to friend you and i call my friends' friends not to friend you.

hahaha.. get what i mean when i say i'm crazy? Okay.. come.. let's seriously go on.

Yah...OH!! YAH!! my dreams.. okay. you have to understand my dreams to me are very very real.. when i wake up.. i will remain in them for awhile.. like the last time i dreamt someone scolded me.. i woke up feeling so sad.. and i was trying to rmb why, and i realised because it happened in my dream. Something like that lah..don't know whether its normal..do you guys feel the same way? then maybe its not only me. hahaha..

Also, my dreams come in episodes.Like on mon i will dream of this. And on tue i will dream of the same thing, but in the dream, its another day in the same place.And i almost always have dreams. Very tiring.

Then my dreams are mostly bout about shopping centres, big buildings and me walking about in them. But my places will look more big and magnificient. For example, cck will look different and bigger and niccer, but i will KNOW it is cck building.

Haha.. and they are normally the same ppl in my dream.. my dinner kah kia. Always see them.Hahah.. opps. SIDETRACK. Okay, wanted to say my dream on wed was like.. ahhah. commical. I had a horse!!! And esther tan.. you have one too!! Hahah.. yours belongs to someone esle.. he lent you. Can't rmb who. think da ge.

Anyways.. we were eating in JE, then we had to leave for interchange. So i get my horse( Which btw was a present from the producers of LOTR, after their filming.) and i ride to interchange before the rest of the ppl-- dage, esther, joel, a few more..

And i CAN"T steer the poor horse!!!So i keep bumping his head into walls, signboards, the MRT column pillar!!!So poor thing.. ( because i don't play daytona!!!).

So as im riding, i meet joash who shouts to Jonathan that his bday party is still on. And i rmb (from the prev dream episode) that there's this murderer killing us. and he only appears in places with alot of ppl, so jonathan don't want a party. A few ppl already died liao.. sad right?? ahhaha.. from our youth.Hahaha.. oh well.

Anyways.. i ride to the interchange and when i'm there, esther tan SAYS.. hey.. the murdererer is here!!So calmly.. and me? I ride off quickly.. thankful that the masked man cannot chase me as i'm on shadowfax, the fastest horse there is in middle earth. I hide for awhile.. before i wake up.. HAhaha... so silly.

There you have it.. my dream.. sorry so long.. next time i practise 160 words summary okay?Hahah.. sorry. And, esther.. you have a nice horse!!! but not as fast as mine lah.. hehehehhe..

God is good. So good. So very very good.

We cry holy holy holy
We cry holy holy holy
We cry holy holy holy
Is the lamb.

Went morn prayer!! Yay yay yay!! Want to go tmr again.. though pls don't scold me.. i know i need to study-- Eric Loh's good at the reminding part. Sighz.. sometimes i don't know if i'm being silly...

Okay.. Anyways.. God is good. God IS good. Morning prayer blew my mind away.. the things he reveals.. hmmm.. man.Somehow.. i wonder if we have defiled God's idea of worship. I wonder if we have perverted His holiness. I wonder if we have destroyed his courts when we enter so blatantly. Its by grace that we enter.. have we forgotten? We pollute it with our self righteousness and pride.. we neglect the fact that we are NOTHING before the Most High.. and it was because He first chose us that we are given this special privilege.We come in so casually we forget we are meeting a King... OUR King. I'm guilty of that God.

Argh.. God!! Okay okay.. i have 4 more days.. 4 more days of exams.. which means.. 1 more week counting the breaks!! Praise God!! He has sustained me.. so long and will continue to do so. Sighz.. man God.. You are so awesome.. what to say?

Chem's on fri.I have today and tmr to study. Please pray ppl!! My chem's not very good!! But my God IS!!

Hahah.. yah.. SO (sorry sidetrack).. we went Mac's to eat after prayer!! Not really filling lei.. wanted to eat somemore.. but they all want to go home. Hahaha.. but i no money also.. have lah.. but.. must save for tmr!! hahah.. I dunno where all the cash fly to leh!! I'm hardly ever broke one.. that's why jason and da ge always say i rich!!! Arh arh arh.. whatever.......i wish i was too!! arh.. the spoils of being rich and wealthy..imagine the amount of burgers i could buy!! Then i can cab to morning prayer!! And i can .. wad can i do?? I can.. opps.. haha.. pay tithes!!

Hehehe.. okk okk.. study study study!! Which means Jennifer and Elvin!! Stop reading now and go study!! Hahaha.. opps.. i really no big no small.. cannot talk to dai kor like that!

Sorry dai kor. Anything you say dai kor.

STUDY! YAY! Sleep first. Chief says i sleep very little for my age.... oh well.. to infinity and beyond!

Hehehe!! Sorry dear bloggers, i realised i didn't blog yesterday.. though by my one-entry-every-2-days habit, i should have. Hahaha.. arh.. who cares..

Anyways.. hahah.. yesterday was such a funny day. I was on gp.. not Gp. You'll figure the diff after awhile..haha.. so.. wah.. my Gp not around, and i wasn't expecting to do alone.. so abit the messy.. Sorry Worship Leader.. who was it? Shirley? No no.. hahah.. its the one and only.....Bro FOOng!! Holy and annointed one... hahah.. arh.. blasphemy..

Okay.. then worship prac.. eric was so scientific.. bu kui is scholar.. all the bio terms.Supposed to practise voice projection..(nah.. not astral projection..prue's dead.WAH!!... no wait.. YAY!!)

Yah... fun lah.. but I'm the only guy.. so elvin was saying can he hear me distinctively. Well.. just to tell you hor da ge.. I can hear me too.. this super bass voice.WAHHHHH... hahah.. oh well..NEXT!!

Next was service.. hahah. was so tired.. and sleepy.. studied to 2 something the day before.. together with *ATTENTION!!* Chief!!Hahaha..

Okay.. so we went BK to eat after that!! Thanks to me!!! hahah..i was so insistent, "but there wouldn't be any seats in the food court!!"... ahha.. so chief relented. Da ge!!! You have this siao di to thank okay.. if not you'll be eating food court food again.

Hahah..and during dinner, someone asks me," How come you don't have to study?".. and he asked so innocently.. i was so speechless.. haha.. but yah man.. hahah..

Heheh.. actually, i'm really wating to write bout my amaths paper today.. but i sidetrack so much. ahhah.. okay.. next time lah.Summary-- God is gOOd!!!

Another entry.. wah.. thoughts are running wild!! So many things i'm thinking of but not one I'm focused on. Flying everywhere!! Okay Okay.. attention!! Back in position!!

Okay.. update abit. RMB Operation Destructo OsO? Well.. half the battle is won. 2 more weeks, continue praying ppl! God is really good.. i mean.. He really helped in my exams.A very brief summary is that, the very few chaps i studied, came out. Thank God. Praise God!! You stinking RULE!! 1o points 1o points!! (When i get it,its really God loh.. 1o points is pretty much imposible for me.. but..i still like 1o points for Os. Sounds so cool.. hahah.Faith faith.)

Okay.. anyways.. MANHATTAN IS MINE!! Seen that ad anyone? So funny.. haha..
You know what? It serves as a reminder.. that SINGAPORE IS MINE.. IS OURS.. IS CHRIST'S.. just to re-focus some of you and myself (definately)..=)

Next on list.. let me think.Okay... Chief's lesson was superb man.. I tink it was great..(Appluase.. and i mean it.Ok... why aren't you clapping?). Love. WOW! His love.. so wide. Such simple love for us. No strings attached.. if i shld say.. such Childlike Love.. as it is with faith. WOW. Thanks God. What measure of love You have given us.

Ok. I'll expand next time. Really cannot rmb wad i wanted to write? Was it the above? Oh well.. my memory is failing... wait.. is this blogger? Or blooger? Oh yah.. Bloggur.. I mean.. blogger.

The I-love-morning-prayers Entry.

Hahah..tired.. when i'm tired my entries become longer.Okee okee.. Thank you thank you for the lift!

Oh OH! Who is my annomynous (Is tt how you spell it?) note leaver? I can make a wild guess but you cannot like that to me ok?Hahaha.. do tell who you are.. Can sense in the force you have lots more to say.Oh kay.. thank you.. really appreciate it. You saw stuff i didn't realise...

Okay.. Really already now. I went morn prayer today!!!! SO happy happy happy!! Hahah. thank you for the lift, (please pass on msg dai kor sir).. sorry sorry for the trouble (please relay msg da ge sir!).

I promised Someone i will go one.. so i went.. and I'm glad i did. This time i was reminded of Birth Pains*. (*Is it? I can't rmb wad i was reminded of already. BAD BAD BAD memory)

I was also reminded of the postion we hold in Christ. Of coz not much reminding for tt one. *smiles cheekily, He can attest to the noise I've been making.*

Okay.. Hahahah.. so sis helen was talking bout praying for the Spirit to work extra hard for her daughter's Mother Tongue exam i think. And Uncle George went " The Spirit can only speak Father Tongue.. not Mother Tongue.. "

hahahhahahaha.... so funny.. I'm telling you.. this ppl are like.. so hilarious.. not to mention the amount of Godly wisdom they can offer.. I was pretty blessed by the breakfast after morn prayer. Hahaha.. i didn't eat though! (See Chief? I'm not binge-ing). hahah.. actually.. coz i didn't have money already.. only $1.20 left for the next few days. *Hint Hint, esp my dage.. My allowance please!=)*

But it was a suplendous time. The things God can do.WOW.Okay.. back to studying! Or rather snoozing. Good Morning everyone!! Hahahah..

" It's an addiction!!!", cried the child, as he say crossed-legged in the forts of his maroon-coloured chair. The persistant cryings of the television barked into his ears, but he was oblivious to it.

His insistent manner was evident. It was visible and obvious. Then he paused, quietened down, and leaned back, finding respite in the noises that rose around him. How? one might ask. It was because they had simmered down to but repeated nudges to his imagination-- he was ignorant to their assending bellowing and instead took them as part and parcel of his little neighbourhood.

He rode upon the noises, letting loose his wild thoughts; It was an addiction..He finally decided. Desmond finally decided.

Its an addiction to blogging every 2 days, very naturally, not on purpose one!!!!!!!! Hahahahhahah... heheh.. sorry.. i don't think its an addiction actually lah... today's post is practising for english paper tmr. I'm worried abit loh.. cause esther says my compo is like...wah.. hahaha..horizontal straight line graph with decreasing gradient. In english.. it means.. boring.. And she's not the first. Hahah.. I agree lah.. its quite bad. Even my teacher says my stories are too neat and predictable.

Help ME!!! God!!!! Hahahha.. okay.. sister tan also says my entries too long. Okay loh.. i try to cut short. But i can't restrain myself.

Seriously.. anyone has tips? Da ge? Please call me or leave notes. Or do something.. panic panic panic.. hahah.. not really lah.Just want to add spice into my compo. Clover, pepper. Whatever! (Rhymed right? Man..i'm good. OKAY maybe not..hahaha)

Back to studying the educatations of socialitities. Hahha.. have such word?? Aiyah.. it simply means Social Studies.
PRAY PPL PRAY..

THE JOY OF THE LORD

You gave me Joy that's unspeakable
And I like it...

Hahaha. newsboys.. very cartoon song.. but.. God's joy is unspeakable.. It is something that is reflected off our lives, our actions, our entire being.

Okay lah.. tell you the truth.. didn't prepare anything to say.Hehe.. so hor.. those who waited in anticipation for this short simple message..(I am trying to have faith to believe ppl are anxiously awaiting it).. going to be disapointed loh.sorry..

I just came back from wedding, didn't intend to blog at all.. because.. yes.. to that extent jennifer was right.. lazy.. OEI.. but at least i update pretty frequetly leh.. amuse you ppl with my silly antics.But then i rmbed its the end of the week already.. must bring my offering of JOY to you guys.

Hahahah.. cham lah.. nothing to say bout joy of the Lord.No bible references.
But the bible says The Joy of the Lord is our strength. Why so? To me lah.. i tink its because.. We know that.. yah lah.. trials, battles, failures, dissappointments, discouragements, hurts and the like..though they may be real,But we have Someone who is in control. That's how we remain joyful.. and creates a chain effect.

We feel down----> But we know He is in control---->We are joyful not in our problems, but in DADDY up there---> We go on because we know all things work for good for those who love Him. ALL things.

I'm a very unstable person.. as in i can have alot of emotions at one go..this week is good example. But one thing that BOSS reminded me is that.. Joy IN the Lord is where my strength's gonna come from.

Like I said before.. we don't deny our problems.We admit them. Faith is NOT positive thinking hello? Nope.. arh arh.. NAh.. NOT.. It is admiting the problem, but in spite of that believing that God's going to work it out for the best.

One thing we also have to realise is that.. What are we fighting for? Be reminded that our goal on this earth is for SOULS.. Once we lose focus.. when things go wrong.. very likely we can't remain joyful.. because somehow, they are not even stuff that God wants us to mainly battle for.

ARH.. sudden stroke of genius again.Opps.. lost it. Wait.. wait..
Oh... when our PRIMARY aim in doing stuff is not for God's glory, when we fail.. we become dissappointed in ourselves.And we lose joy because we are human.. its difficult for us to give ourselves another chance.

But when we do stuff PRIMARYLY for Him, when we fail.. we don't lose that joy.. because He is a God of UNENDING CHANCES. Not saying that we abuse this unceasing supply of 2nd chances.. but.. when we've done our best, and we fail still.. we know we haven't failed God.

Actually. i don't know what I'm saying. coz abit the sleepy..Think what I'm driving at is..Joy IN the Lord gives us strength to go wrong.Its a JOY that remains strong and steady even in times of difficulty.So be happy ppl!! God is GOOD.. God is AWESOMELY GOOD!!

Okay.. my time of difficulty arises.. Os..new mission..DESTRUCTO O'sO..Please pray for me.I need lots of prayer.. thank you guys!!

The joy of the Lord is my strength x4.
AMEN.

The Re-entry

Aiyoh aiyoh.. you got me wrong liao lah.. yuan wang arh yuan wang!!!Okay.. ppl..Esther DOES NOT die die want to be my er jie okay?Its me yah??Coz she my good fren er jie mah.. so the P3 calls her er jie to complement John.She does NOT die die want to be my er jie yah? As if i'm a very good siao di and everyone wants to be my da ge da jie.

So arh.. SORRY SORRY SORRY esther.. aiyoh.. i didn't mean it that way loh.. but you misinterpreted. sOrRy... look.. its a nice upper-lower case sorry.. SoRrY lah..

Tah dah! Another entry today..must keep up with my tradition of one entry every 2 days.Actually.. didn't really have anything to write. But.. must thank ESTHER TAN!!(I'm guessing she's wanting to be known as er jie) for calling me..So decided to have an entry to thank her.. Well.. sorry yah.. if I sounded unappreciative.. I really am thankful.... hahha

Just that.. I was so taken back that you would call me.. taken by surprise and thus, over react lah and cannot speak properly... hahahha... oh wells.. thank you!

Tmr is thursday, have chem prac. Those reading, pls pray.I finished my chem prac revision, but seems too little loh.. though my fren said i should have covered everything.

This my dears, is called the des's 11pm syndrome.The most familiar with this is.........the da ge ELVIN! Hahahah... He can bear wittness to how i over react bout my studying at around 11pm, the night before my whatever paper.Hahahah....

Okay.. the JOY of the LOrd entry shld be coming this weekend.I'll try to see what I gather frOm Him.He is AWESOME.. Stinking explOsively AwesOme!!

ps: the capital O looks nice yah.. among the other words.. hahha.. i mean.. amOng the Other wOrds.. hahahha.. okay okay.. stop here.. short entry.. hOpe ya enjOyed it ppl.. hahha..

PRAY PRAY PRAY.. and GOOD NITE!

Okay.. every 2 days one blog entry.I'm over doing this.
Finished my phy prac book.What to do with it man??

Now, the past few days have been really bad for me.But I'm trying my best liao.So of course there is strife within my blog.Its like I'm trying to convince myself that Im not upset.. that i'm happy.Meaning... My blog makes no sense at all.Which i agree!! ha.. coz ................ there is strife loh.

Which evening srvc was really good.Can't rmb what its about. Hahaha.. i just knew it was good for me then.Was it something to do with grace? I really forgot.(to think i commented even srvc was good for me).Oh.. dying to ourselves is it?Yah..

Okay.. thus I bring forth a solemn note into my blog. I admit I've been super swingy. My mood faluctuates between happy, quiet, sad, irritable, and whatever you can think of in a short span of time.Not good. So yup.. that's all i've got to say bout this mood swings.

Of coz, Some ppl only see the crazy side of me.. while others.. see my full blown mood swing.( OKay.. maybe not full blown.. full blown then i wouldn't be here liao.. too guilty to see anyone). SORRY yah.. you know who you are.Of coz you do.

ANYWAY.. happy note liao lah.. sad all the time very irritating you know?!??!Even for me. (hello.. this is not another 'strife' thing okay??I'm still wonkey.. but I know this time that God's faithful. )

So! I want to talk about the Joy of the Lord. Hahahha..Please turn to ..... OKAY.. Fine.. i have no bible references whatsoever.. But MR UP-THERE just reminded me about His wonderfullicious red-bull sustitute-- Joy!So I wan to talk bout it.Not today though.. another day.. those reading.. please please please please pray for me.. exams are up soon.. tmr is phy prac, thur,chem. Please rmb the kid in prayers.

And THANK YOU DA GE once again..for the pep.HOORAY FOR DA GEs!!!I can't rmb any pep talk I've had with you recently.. but... certain stuff you;ve done has seriously pepped your siao di much.. Thank YOU thank you.. hahah.. you want can continue pepping your siao di...the rest of you also can help pep me.. by.. treating me drinks. or lunch.. i mean.. seriosuly..how much better it is to give than to receive isn't it...haha

OF COZ NONE BEATS MR MY-GRACE-IS-SUFFICIENT-FOR-YOU!!.. MAN.. You are totally awesome!!!Woo hoo!! Chihuahua!!!

Okay.. another blog entry cause i just finished the studies of Switzerland. The land of watches and army knifes and the *hold your breaths* SWISS. Really tired.

I'm so crushed suddenly.And yah in case you're guessing.. am crying.ARGHHH...
Let me get over for awhile.. sorry.

Tah dah!! Okay.. can liao.. I promised ppl i would be happy.Plus i know i shouldn't be sad because God is good.Stinky good.

(ARGHH... okay..not being hypocritical... but.. yes im sad... but... sighz.. seriously you dork!! God is so good i would not be justifying His goodness by being sad right??So trying my best to be happy loh... smile and smile and smile for God.)

Okay show you all what i wrote. in my class website.Supposed to be under the section "Quotes of encouragement" by some ppl who are crazy over nice quotes.So i decided to inject my brilliance amongst their mediocrocity*hahaha.. new word.can't spell lah.. ironic that i'm trying to boast of my english skills to you and i can't spell*. Apparently.. no one understands and no one bothers... so its good for me.So i wrote quite a few of my own already..I have originality mah..not like them. Just copy and paste.*beams with pride*
I like this one that i did.

"Waters carved from grief and sorrow,
Moistened by bliss and merry.
Breaking of one mighty and anguished,
Liberation to one of sheer strength."

A tear.

Makes no sense yah? Oh well.Man... Never mind.. my God still reigns on high.HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!

I'll end.Here's some tidbit on an upcoming entry.Guess what its based on.

"A new operation is arising..*sounds familiar?*.............*erm.. opps..can't rmb liao.. nvm.. *.. And its called Operation DESTRUCTO OSO."

ARGHHHHHHH.... LAH LAH LAH LAH LAH LAH LAH LAH!! I'm so praying for someone to call me now and talk to me.

Oh well.. I'm the most bloggious one here.. one new entry evry 2 days.Just that, after studying and doing maths till late night, you just want to blog to relieve the stress and let your mind slow down abit.My mind is slowing down.. as in not so clear, want to sleep yah? Not becoming SENILE.

Okay, contrary to popular believe (I dunno if its popular, the phrase just sounds nice), I did NOT encourage a certain someone.I did not I did not! Argh.. whatever, as esther foong and I would say together!

Whatever Whatever.. arh.. repeat that to yourself 1o times and you will feel the easing of spirit and mind.Of course you would also sense someone calling woodbridge which sad to say, is NOT in woodlands.

And so, What shall i speak of today? I feel a long entry coming up and i feel a few ppl twit.....OEI YOU!! Who ask you click on the back button?! READ ON. NOW!!!.. as i was saying before i was so rudely interrupted *Glares menacingly at culprit(s) and turns back smiliing sweetly to faithful ones still reading(Faithful ones please sign gb to win gratitude from the kid--ME LAH.)*.....and i feel a few ppl twitching uncomfortably in their seats.

Okay how bout this.Nah... nvm bout that.You guys probably know already.Well,Os are up real soon.Please pray yah, I know i don't seem worried but I'm just a boy.Arghh.. as if anyone would believe huh?

Went for morning prayer this morn.Woke up at 5 cause thot first train at 5.3o. Then i reached the station at 5.4o and waited till 6.1o!!Felt so dumb and wanted to cry there and then.YAH LAH, I cry alot lah, for a guy.I have had so little sleep the whole week leh.I purposely wake up so early to reach cck late?!?!?!? No right?that's why loh.

When i reached bus interchange.. no one was taking 3oo at all.I was like trying to act normal but i was fidgeting inside cause didn't know if 3oo would really come.NOT ONE PERSON loh, and for Service 3oo...its not normal.So i just kept reading my geog textbook.rmb its 6.3o at that moment.I was more of trying to act studious and geeky so that if i really made a mistake ppl will like say" Aiyah, normal for studious kids."

And so i reach CCK building at 6.4o and when i step into the sanctuary, Its like something hits you in the stomach.*WHANG BAM!!OoooFf*. So filled with God's presence there.Its just so... wow!!!Of coz i felt like a total idiot.I was the youngest there and i reached there so late( only 2o min left).And i didn't know pray for what!!So i just prayed whatever came to my groggy mind.

Then in a jiffy, we ended.And left for glorious Sunshine place.Sunshine place was never so SHINED upon by the Sun before... FOOD..I mean.... GOOOd.... but i was sooooo tired.And the adults and my dear da ge were all speaking in this foreiggn language which i would call CANTONESE.Wah... i only understand bits and peices by listening for similar sounds to chinese words and applying my assumptions to the situation to see if they were applicable.

AND my da ge did not interpret also.So I'm like.. giving ppl this.."Hey, I know its something funny but i dunno what exactly" Kind of smile.I felt like soooo stupid.But they were really cool ppl.. i mean.. erm.. nice ppl.. fun.Wah.. sis lily treat me.I was so pai seh, but i rmb once she said in class--"If i give you treat, you dun refuse me.".So listen loh.I didn't want her to pay loh.Honest.

Okay.. I'll continue another time.Even i worry for the length and endurance of my readers.

I'll jsut continue now and cut short.Well... we went home i went home with Sis Lily.And I CAN"T WAIT for next time i go morning prayer!! This time.. most prob on fri..can someone give me lift? Qiuyi cabbing??Eric cabbin?Elvin cabbing?Esther cabbing?Someone cabbing? I dun want to go late again.. Arh... I'll convince Jidi to go and take cab with her!! Hahahha.. nice one desmond but.. nah... not likely boy.

Hmmm.. a late night entry.. Hahaha.. anyways.. late nights recently.. like this.1.3o am!! hahahha.. Am listening to Shout to the Lord by Lincoln Brewster.He sure is BREWING up some music.. hahaha..

Okay.. like i always tell Qiuyi.."I've got no time lah..so much homework".. but i happened to read something today that says "WE HAVE THE TIME IF WE WANT TO MAKE THE TIME!!!!" Yea.. its all upper case too..And i became thoughtful..

So true, I mean, if something unexpected crops up, we deal with it..(And i also over react together with it; MAJORLY!!).. and we still move on.. managing whatever we had to do still.So, i guess it means "Des, you have time, just make the time."

Hmmm.. tmr eric's having big bang, maybe going to add spice to the bang..after all I AM one quarter thai.So spicy.. hahhaha.

OKAY OKAY.. HOLD CHA HORSES DUDES AND DUDETTES!! I know what's going on now already, I'm starting to go into hyper lame mode.I'm not hyper, just being very lame.Its 1.38am.. of coz man.. not like yesterday.. wad really hyper till 2.45.

Okay... better stop now and leave you guys to your horse rides. I'm actually so tempted to tell you the Pastor and Horse joke.ARGHHH!!!! DA GE.. would you do us the honour?!??! Hahaha..Okay.. we anxiously await your joke.*Bites fingernails. toe nails.Opps.. no more nails to bite?? Bite your lips then.*

Lah lah.. sleep.. glorious sleep.. MUAHAHAHHAHA..Pardon my insanity..=)

Operation BOOM BOOM HW!

I so must write today... because everyone else is writing.. hahahaha...Okay.. well. Yesterday night was like battle ground for a few of us.WOW.. for me... i slept on the battle ground.

12- 1 am--- I am trying hard to think of a battle plan for the invasion of my
nemesis.Code name:HW I have lost my trusty aide... Officer Cal (Short for calculator).. and am left without help to anhilate HW. Less than half of HW can be anhilated because of the absence of Officer Cal. I reckon i should sleep. and wake up early to resume anhilation planning..I order my recruit Hp to wake me at 4.3o.

4.3o am--- I am awakened by the insistent naggings of HP.Hp tells me it is 4.3o. "Sir, would you want continue the battle plan Sir?" I slap him hard in the stomach.And he silences for a good 1o min. Its good because i get to plan my battle plan for another good 1o min.I think momentarily of my comrade in the other side of territory F11, my beloved Da ge, who has been tasked with one of the most monstrous enemy of all -- a terrible foe who goes by the name 25oo word essay!I shudder at the mere thought...... but push myself to return to my planning.

4.4o am---Hp awakes from his uncounsious state.This time I tell Hp to go prepare
himself and wake me at 4.55 whilst my battle plan takes shape in Dreamland.

4.55 am---I commend Hp for his precision in his wakening duties.But i worry thus for his well-being so I grant him permission to rest for another 55 min before we embark on Operation "BOOM BOOM HW!!"

5.45 am---Recruit Hp once again awakens, ever so ready to fulfill his military duties.And i?I am now fully prepared and have come with a perfect and flawless battle strategy.. as always.Operation BOOM BOOM HW!! is a worthy task pit against our wits. and being witful people (hahaha.. witful..no such word btw.. as my da ge can attest).I propose we leave my nemesis to die of old age. Hp agrees with me.. and promises to wake me at 6.3o

6.35 am-- I wake up and prepare the furneral procession.Operation BOOM BOOM
HW!! has been a success and but i still admire a worthy foe like HW.I utter a small prayer before going out of my tent.( okay im lying.. a really big big big prayer okay??Man..).

There you have it..operation BOOM BOOM HW!! I was fully aware of what i was doing to recruit Hp.I was fully aware i was endangering my life by leaving HW to die of old age.His bosses could have easily rendered me dead.But my brilliant planning scrapped by.I am victorious! I have triumphed over my arch enemy........... at least for now.

Because He lives I can face tomorrow
Because He lives all fear is gone
Because I know I know He holds the future
And life is worth the living
Just because He lives

He lives.WOW,thank God He does.His Holiness.
So.. Mr God,How holy exactly are You?
God:There's no limit??
Okay, understandable.Then seriously,what do You expect Your.. erm.. children... as you call them to do in response?
God:Hmm.. I want them to love Me full heartedly.I want the glory that is due Me.I am a Jealous God.And what is set apart for Me is mine.I want the first place.

I'm seriously hounded by boredom.Really set my heart thinking.The holiness of God.Lest we have a revelation of His holiness,we cannot worship Him with our hearts.Something like that.But.. so true.Unless we've seen a glimpse of that sovereignty, unless we long to see just but a portion of His holiness, how can we be compelled to worship Him.Not that we can't.But when we've tasted of His splendour, His beauty... then how we would long even more to come before Him.

Remember I said this, not wanting the things we can get out of Him but wanting Him for who He is.Arh.. stroke of genius."Seek the giver not the gift".

So what exactly is Your holiness?Care to share?
God:Nah... i think I'll just keep it to myself.

THANK GOD HE DOESN"T SAY THAT!! HE says "seek and You shall find."

That's what we should do man.. seriously.. God's willing.He's waiting,arms opened, saying,"I have so much to tell you, will you listen?I have so much to share, will you ask??".

I don't know bout you.But I was challenged to seek God to reveal His Holiness.I want to do so.I'm going to do my best to do so.He lives.He does.That's why i can face tomorrow.I'm just a kid, can't do much.But God can do much more.Even more because He is a living God, and a personal One at that.

I'm ready to enter a new level of worship and in my walk with Him.I want to know His holiness, and I pray for such revelation of it.Amen.

Who have I in heaven but You?
There is nothing I desire besides You.
My heart and my strength
Many times they fail.
But there is one truth
That always will prevail.

God is the strength of my heart
God is the strength of my heart
God is the strength of my heart
And my portion forever,forever.

This is like MY song, like Divine Exchange belongs to esther tan.It just pricks my heart. (Nah.. not burst forth like a reservoir for those of you who get the joke).
And amazingly it always comes at a time i need Him badly.

I need to need Him badly.

"My heart and strength,Many times they fail." They always do.Those blasted things.But i'm so grateful God doesn't have a heart and might like mine.

Man.. How to describe One so beautiful.I do not have the slightest idea.Lets face it.Im not strong with my words.I can't convince you how i feel.But then again it doesn't matter.Because my lack doesn't limit God unless i cause it to be so.

"God is the strength....... of my heart....".I duno what to say.Should i try and convince ppl that He is truly the strength of our lives our soul and our everything?
I don't need to do that i realised.You know it.

"Strength of my heart come.. come.. come.come.Lord come."

Lah lah lah lah.. nah.Not hyper. Just thankful God is in control all the time. I am so...nothing before Him.

Seriously, I'm just, marvelled at His wisdom.He's really good at this "you get this talent and you get this.. and put da both of ya together and we get a ka-booming effect" kind of thing.

I've always wondered bout something.I thought i came to terms with it.But I haven't.I merely brushed it aside.Now things must change.Faith is a seed that grows larger everytime you use it.It is a seed that has so much potential.Prayer is the moisture needed.My FaThEr up there is like the farmer and the sunlight.Put them together and wah-lah-ka-zam.. we have miracles.

Miracles miracles
Big and small
Miracles Miracles
Miracles Galore!

Its not us.Its all God. I dunno wad to say... just typing on and on..end here then.
"But there is one truth that always will prevail..THAT GOD IS THE STRENGTH OF MY HEART."

Thanks Dad.