The One With All the Missing.

Its been about 1 and a half months since I've gone in. To be honest, every time I book out, I honestly wish I could have a good hang-out dinner with my frens.

I miss alot of you alot.

I find myself feeling like I'm trying to grab at anything remotely related to my un-camp life everytime I book in. Sometimes I tear in the cab, sigh, and ask God for strength.

To be honest, I'm abit lost as I return to church. So much has changed. For me, time has become so precious. I need time for my family, and time for my friends, and time for God, and church. Its difficult with all the new things.

Please keep me in prayer, that I dun make any mistake that could cause me a confinement. Haha, miss you guys loads. Take care people.

The One With Superhero Trivia.

I've always loved Marvel and DC superhero cartoons. Each character has their own unique story, of how they got their super powers, and the implications of their powers. Kinda like how each of us have our own "back in my days" to tell our grandchildren at future family dinners.

Here are some superheros that I feel for the most.

Batman
Probably one of the most mysterious superhero there is. A man who, to me, is brilliantly powerful, yet equally vulnerable at the same time. This guy is THE MAN. By night, he is the Caped Crusader, the most brilliant man on earth, arguably the most dangerous super hero of all time. Has no powers, but is so intellectual. By day he is Bruce Wayne, rich, seemingly ignorant fool whose mind is all about hedonistic enjoyment.

Yet behind the mask (literally), here is a man who has had no childhood. A man so dedicated to his nightjob, he realises he can truly open up to few. A man who wears a mask not just to hide his identity, but to build up walls to protect himself. A man people misunderstand. Evil fears him; the police think he is a troublemaker. As Batman, he speaks in whispers to ensure his alter-ego is not betrayed.

A part of me actually feels sad for Batman.
Dunno what else to say la.

Rouge
Of X-men fame. Here is another hero who is pretty clammed up. Because of her powers, which work by physical contact with another person, she can't touch others without hurting them. And becos she fears bring harm to people, she draws away, and becomes slightly anti-social. Sorta like batman. Well the X-men: Evolution versioin of Rogue is like that at least.

No physical contact with others. That's really qute a tough thing.

Superman
Ahh Clark Kent. The nice homely superhero. Always going back to his roots, well. Sort of roots in the Kent Farm. I think he is the one superhero who has good family backing. Martha and Jonathan Kent in Smallville at least, are seen to be really guiding him. Which is something I hardly see in most superheros. Little is known about their families and all.

Ok granted, not many have an entire drama series played by real-life people, instead of drawings. But Superman is like the hero with a homely feel, to me. Plus he is good friends with Batman. That's good enough reason to like him.

Wonderwoman
Diana is probably the most famous female superheroine. One of my favourite. Yes yes, partly cos Batman in JL: The animated series has a thing for her. Haha, but I like her style. And the fact that she's so lady-like, yet she fights the dark side at the same time.

Grace, beauty, and power and strength all in the right mix.

Many of these superheros have some sad story behind the power and all. In reality, our lives are also the same. Everyone has some kind of sad story, sad past. Sometimes we laugh it off as we talk about -- it's a stepping stone that brought us where we are now. Other times, we choke as we relate it. Other times we get frustrated. Sometimes, we dun even reach the end, becos we dun wanna talk about it.

Nice to know, throughout all of these life-stories, one Superhero has always been there watching over us. The One who was so misunderstood, and all alone, many many many years ago today. Yet He went through it, to save the victims from certain death.

Anyways, its true you know, what Ben Parker said, "With great power, comes great responsibility."

"To whom much is given, much is required."

The One With the 2 Favs Combined.

If you know me well, you probably know I'm a Ronan fan. If you read my blog, you would be accustomed to reading his name. I dun tink I've said this before on my blog, but I'm an Elliot fan too. I tink i had it on my msn nick once.

Well I watched the re-runs of AMI today, and I missed Elliot's performance, but HEYHEYHEY!!! I saw the short clip at the end of all the performances, and realised he sang If Tomorrow Never Comes, a Ronan song!!

!!!!

Exciting!! What are the odds man. Very happy to see that. Haha

That aside, I need to rush off to go back in. Hey you guys, I really miss hanging out with you all. Really. Just talking and hanging out. Can we please do so on fri after service or something. Haha, I need the company of the Saints.

Serious.

Thank you guys for praying for me. Thank you. God is so good. SO SO SO SO SO good. Ok I gotta rush. can't wait for good friday. haha..

I wanna make You smile, Jesus.
Be with me.

Cya soon you guys, take care, be blessed!

The One With The Heatwave..

YEE-HAH!!!

Riding the waves, the Heatwaves! Up and down, up and down -- usually staying up for longer.

To the some of you who know, or who have caught me online.. I was sent home from that place on mon. I want to say 'God-forbidden' to show how wretched that place is.. but God's definitely been in that place with me. The only friend and family that could stay with me through it all.

Anyways, I have 2 more days mc from the polyclinic, which means this week I dun need to go back. Of cos I can't leave my house, but 'get-well soon' visits are welcomed. If you are unable to come, its ok. Cash would be the alternative option; just mail it to me.

haha.. i swear i'm not usually like this.

-in mock hysteria- ITS THE HEATtttttttttttttt. THE FEVErr i tell you. The FEVEEER!!!!!!! get away from it!!!! it will kill you!! it will kill youuuuuu!!!!!!

Anyways, its a thunderstorm out there now. I like rain, but not lightning and thunder man.

The One About Victory.

His victory that is.

Before I went in, I was not as nervous and scared as i expected to be. I knew it was definitely God, because come on... Like shared in the previous entry, ( The One About Defeat), I'm afraid of even cockroaches. And all those other things. And going in is a much bigger issue than most of them.

But really, God really sustained me. He knew beforehand what was going to happen. He knew everything in and out. Prior to going in, I was starting on Psalms for my QT. I'm very irregular la btw. I confess. But anyways, I decided to start on Psalms, and one day before i went in, I reached Ps 20.

That was the Psalm that sustained me. When I read it the night before, everything just felt so right. So throughout those 2 weeks, i just kept reading that Psalm over and over again, assured that God saves. And He did. I'm not saying it was a breeze. For the others, they came out after one week, or after 4 days for CNY. For me there was no public holiday, and i went through the entire 2 weeks, feeling really defeated some days. God sustained me, and calls home everynight (cept' one night) kept me going.

Thanks to all who msged me and all. You guys kept me going. I really missed you guys alot alot alot. Thanks for praying to a God who hears, and held me each day. ARGH! I'm almost in tears when I think about His goodness; sending me help, being who He is, and giving me ppl to bothered to pray.

May the LORD answer you when you are in distress; may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.

May he send you help from the sanctuary and grant you support from Zion. May he remember all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings.

May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. We will shout for joy when you are victorious and will lift up our banners in the name of our God. May the LORD grant all your requests.

Now I know that the LORD saves his anointed; he answers him from his holy heaven with the saving power of his right hand. Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.

They are brought to their knees and fall, but we rise up and stand firm.

Oh LORD, save the king! Answer us when we call.

Ok, the last part doesn't really speak that much, but the essence of the Psalm spoke so much to me. Haha.. I'm really tired and black (really really really black) so I'll stop here.

But not before saying this -- God is faithful. Really. If there's anything about the big N which I've gotten out of, and i really really love, is that it brought me closer to God, and made me love my parents and family more. Everything else.. haha, really doesn't excite me that much...

JESUS!!!!! I stand amazed amazed amazed. THANK YOU. THANK YOU, for loving me. Please help me.

Amen.

The One about the Defeat.

If you know me, you'll know I'm a boy (soon to be man.) who is afraid of alot of stuff. Crazy hyperactive dogs, like er hem, you know who. Speaking in public... and cockroaches. To name a few...

In my defense, i'm not afraid of big, quiet, stoic dogs. Yizai, on the other hand, is a big, stoic-looking dog, who is alittle mad, i've gotta say. I'm sorry John... since that day he wanted to eat us up, he has join the dog brigade of hypercanine i wish to never go near in my life.

Haha, you get the point.

I've always tried to confront my fears. In genting camp a few years back, we went to the theme park. I sat only 3 rides, and i was out. Altho, out of those 3, my favourite was the spaceshot, where you sit in these seats, and they plunge you upwards into the air.

I do try and confront my fears. Even public speaking. The classic story of me, wanting to confront it, in a school assembly. I ended up stammering away. I will always remember how i started.

"GOOd......... AFTernoon....... Sir. I am........... Desmond........ from 04A**."

That's not a swear word btw, its to hide my true identity. Haha.. Mygoodness, I made a fool out of myself. But i try to face my fears.

Out of the many fears I have, the one i can never face is the (K)ockroack. I tried once last year; i sprayed and sprayed and sprayed like there was no tmr for me, if the cockroach lived. Fortunately for me, tho the cockroach survived after the psycho-spraying, i still had a tmr.

Last night, I saw a cockroach in my kitchen. You see, normally, I would leave it, and go to sleep, or wake my mom up. But I thought, what better way to face my fears than to kill it? I folded newspapers, and I threw it at the roach. But as it is, I'm not good at daytona, tank-destroying games, and I'm a bad shot. I missed TERRIBLY.

The next 30 minutes, was spent, walking around the house looking for bygone or mortein(?), NEITHER OF WHICH I FOUND. Judging from the way I used it the last time, and still was not successful, my mom probably thot, why bother. So i walked up and down the house, perspiring at 2 plus, saying to myself, DESMOND YOU CAN DO THIS.

I finally got the mop, and i started to whack the fella. It was running around, as i kept nudging it, and i finally turned it over, but i couldn't bring myself to step on it. Not out compassion mind you. Fear. Haha.. Anyways, i kept going. Cos it flipped itself over.

"Come on Desmond, You've been perspiring, and walking around for almost 30 min. You're not gonna waste all of that by backing out now."

So i kept nudging it. Until it ran behind the dustbin, and i nudged it. AND TWO. Yes, that's ONE, TWO, cockroaches came scurrying out. Needless to say, I went scurrying out of the kitchen, defeated.

Arh.... the grossest thing about cockroaches is that apparently, they can survive an atomic bomb. Now that's scary.

Ok, sorry this was such a long entry. It will probably a really long time till I next blog tho.. till then, Batman, and Keating Rocks.

Batman and Keating!
Up up and away!

The One About the Cheese.

Ok, this entry is gonna be disgusting, so if you dun wanna know about blood, cheese, and rash just dun read, and check back a few weeks later. I mean it.

Seriously.

I'm too irritated to be joking.

Ok, so you're really gonna do this? Ok. Then don't judge me. I'm only human, and I have rashes, blood, and the occasional bite of cheese everynow and then.

Haha, who am i kidding, i love cheese!!!

Not anymore tho.

You see, I've always loved cheese, since i was a little boy. I ate sliced ones just plain, and i ate cream ones like sweets. But i had a problem. (apparently, i still have.) i was allergic to cheese. If i ate too much i would get rashes.

Over the years, somehow, its stopped, and i've enjoyed cheesecake, pasta, pizza and the whole shebang like america loves to hate simon.

Well, I'm taking a shot here, cos I dunno if it really is the cheese, but I've been having rashes SO BAD these few days. I scratched myself in my sleep till my skin tore. IN MY SLEEP!! My goodness, I wore gloves last night to sleep, so i wouldn't do it again.

Anyways, being in church the whole day made my skin really dry, i supposed it tighted and well, its really bad, cos i've got a whole line on my skin that looks like the guy from Wolf Creek hacked my hand. And it hurts.

Well, suspicions arose yesterday, when i realised i started getting a bad rash again aruond THUR. You see, i've got really sensitive skin. Dust gives it a few hours rash, cheese used to give a day rash when i was young. My face is bad -- you would think puberty would have ran its course already. And everything gets worst if i have not enough sleep.

But i rmbed, on wed, after results, i got a bag of Ruffles Cheddar Cheese, to treat myself... Usually its sour cream, or bbq, but i thot, why not. I ate the whole bag on thursday. yes by myself. i've never done that i swear!!

Anyways, my rash starting coming around then, and i didn't realise till sunday. I ate cheese with bread a few days later, and JUST NOW, like 30 MIN ago, i FORGOT, and ate cheesecake. I'm paying for it, cos i just got a new rash area.

AND ITS SO BAD, my skin is tearing, and i'm bleeding, and its not as bad as it sounds, but its not that pretty too.

Oh, last night at power night, when pastor rajan was preaching, i joked, saying to God, "Hey, how bout the rash?" and immediately Ps Rajan said, "God wants to heal those with skin conditions."

Don't ask me why i didn't go out for prayer. I just didn't tink it was that bad!!

Woe to cheese! ARGH! Bring me the calamine........

The One With Ronan's Birthday.

Oh yay! Finally something that brightens up my week. Its Ronan Keating's Birthday!! Ok, before you get all judgemental, saying he's not the best voice, and he's not gonna read my blog (a sad sad fact.) and blahblahblah... I would like to say I deserve to have something to blog about, after hitting a new 'dry'.

So here's to my favourite singer... Happy Birthday, and you're growing old. Like seriously. I see wrinkles man. Just don't stop singing... :) and how bout a backstage pass the next time you come over man.

Ok, so the collage is quite bad. haha, it just doesn't look like what i see in my mind. too bad then. angel is the Queen of this man. anyways, i actually agree he isn't the best voice around. haha i always thought so to those who dunno. Elliot!! The best male voice around!! haha... Katherine is the best female... not her voice tho.

Yea, anyways, haha, its just that mr keating is a family man... and that's rather rare in the entertainment world. Its the same way i like Lisa Kudrow alot. I wanna be a family man too. Man, I even planned the number of children i'm gonna have, and their names already. I also have my impression of what their personalities are like.

Its just nice to be in control of your life for once, even if in some future you know probably won't happen, becos you can control nothing in real life.

Anyways, that's a really far off sidetrack. Haha, talking about keating. Well he doesn't have the most powerful voice around (VOTE ELLIOT!), but his tone is really nice and soothing. its like woodpeppermint's cure on a really sad day. Its abit rough too.. haha, i love rough voices actually. its like you wanna reach down their throat and scratch the voice.

Melissa McGhee and Bucky both have rough voices which I really like.. just that they have so little screen time prior to top 24 round.

Ok, anyways this entry is supposed to be about Keating!! Happy Birthday Ronan Patrick John Keating (that's alot of names. if i only have 2 kids, they are gonna take the names of their other siblings that i had in mind but never actually had.) Not the greatest voice, but definitely my favourite singer..

The A One.

Thank You God. =)

The One with the Quizes

My pirate name is:

Calico Davy Rackham

Often indecisive, you can't even choose a favorite color. You're apt to follow wherever the wind blows you, just like Calico Jack Rackham, your namesake. You have the good fortune of having a good name, since Rackham (pronounced RACKem, not rack-ham) is one of the coolest sounding surnames for a pirate. Arr!

Get your own pirate name from fidius.org.

I was just surfing the net that day, and I chanced upon this quiz. I can't rmb how exactly I did.. Anyways, i was laughing out loud, when it deducted i was indecisive cos i couldn't even choose a fav colour. Quite true. Anyways, this was prob bout 1 - 2 weeks ago that I did it. I did it again (oh spare me the britney nonsense.. haha..) anddddddd this are the results.

My pirate name is:

Iron Davy Read

A pirate's life isn't easy; it takes a tough person. That's okay with you, though, since you a tough person. Even through many pirates have a reputation for not being the brightest souls on earth, you defy the sterotypes. You've got taste and education. Arr!

Get your own pirate name from fidius.org.

I've come to believe Davy is the common denominator. And my pirate name shall henceforth be Calico Iron Davy (II) Rackham. I'll drop the Read, cos I'm not a big fan. And the II does not mean The Second. It just means Davy X 2.

One more quiz. Or not really a quiz. Its a Johari Window. Hannah intro-ed me to it. So I got one too.. Anyways I'll prob get a Nohari Window too.. That's the negative characteristics version.

Ok, click here! So I can broadcast, or blogcast it from my blog, and instead of using it as my msn nick. It's not a nice nick. See, that's why you get blogs! So you can save your msn nicks for nicer things.

Ok. Nights World.Up, Up, and Away......to bed!!

The One With the Angsty Playlist.

That day, I was telling God what my wishlist was, if He ever asked me what are the top 3 things i wanted. Of cos, being the greedy person I am, I told Him, "top 4 please!"

The past few days I've been sitting in front of the comp, typing paragraph after paragraph, and yet nothing decent has come up all these times. And when I say nothing decent, i do mean nothing decent -- in the sense that everything i write seems abit too angsty for me. I'm way past the age for teenage angst. Yes, granted, I'm still eighTEEN, or A(eigh) Teen. But somehow, i feel abit too old for anvril lavagne and other teen angst singers.

Talking about that, I've actually been clearing up my music library. No worries, my fav singer is still in the library. In fact very once in a long while, he has his own airtime, that's undisturbed by any other artiste. Ok, except maybe Bethany Joy Lenz, or Oliver James. That's not the Naked Chef btw. That guy is Jamie Oliver. And to be honest, his show's quite good. Maybe its the name. Hmm. Ok, from now on, my middle name is no longer Shane. Its Oliver.

Anyways, i've been clearing all the rock songs from my playlist. The Julianna Theory is gone, some of my One Tree Hill songs are gone... all to make way for songs to suit a calmer me. Well, i do admit I'm not exactly calmer. But at this point in my life, rock songs are so not for me.

Its been said that a person's playlist reveals his/her personality. I dunno what genre means what; I dun even know what my playlist says about me.

But, changing its contents probably means something.

That day, I was telling God what my wishlist was, if He ever asked me what are the top 3 things i wanted. Of cos, being the greedy person I am, I told Him, "top 4 please!"

This was my last attempted entry. Part of it. I thot about my top 4, and I wondered what happened in my life, that caused me to place those things as my Wishlist.

I can guess abit for all 4, and i think i know why I've cut the rock songs from my playlist. But what else is gonna happen in the near future, that will affect my far future? I don't know.

Thank God, He knows the future.

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.
Because He lives, All fear is gone.
Because I know, I know,
He holds the future.
And life is worth the living,
Just because He lives.

He holds the future. And life is worth the living.
Thankyou Daddy.

The One With The Quiz.

My pirate name is:

Calico Davy Rackham

Often indecisive, you can't even choose a favorite color. You're apt to follow wherever the wind blows you, just like Calico Jack Rackham, your namesake. You have the good fortune of having a good name, since Rackham (pronounced RACKem, not rack-ham) is one of the coolest sounding surnames for a pirate. Arr!

Get your own pirate name from fidius.org.

I was just surfing the net that day, and I chanced upon this quiz. I can't rmb how exactly I did.. Anyways, i was laughing out loud, when it deducted i was indecisive cos i couldn't even choose a fav colour. Quite true. Anyways, this was prob bout 1 - 2 weeks ago that I did it. I did it again (oh spare me the britney nonsense.. haha..) anddddddd this are the results.

My pirate name is:

Iron Davy Read

A pirate's life isn't easy; it takes a tough person. That's okay with you, though, since you a tough person. Even through many pirates have a reputation for not being the brightest souls on earth, you defy the sterotypes. You've got taste and education. Arr!

Get your own pirate name from fidius.org.

I've come to believe Davy is the common denominator. And my pirate name shall henceforth be Calico Iron Davy (II) Rackham. I'll drop the Read, cos I'm not a big fan. And the II does not mean The Second. It just means Davy X 2.

One more quiz. Or not really a quiz. Its a Johari Window. Hannah intro-ed me to it. So I got one too.. Anyways I'll prob get a Nohari Window too.. That's the negative characteristics version.

Ok, click here! So I can broadcast, or blogcast it from my blog, and instead of using it as my msn nick. It's not a nice nick. See, that's why you get blogs! So you can save your msn nicks for nicer things.

Ok. Nights World.
Up, Up, and Away...
...to bed!!

The One About the Tube q.u.o.t.e.s.

"But every day that you stonewall makes you look more and more like a cold, calculating killer.."

-D.B, DH.

"Everyone in the world needs someone they can depend on.
Be they faithful friends...
determined advocates...
or a loving family.
But occasionally in life, the people we thought
would always be there for us...
...leave."

-M.A.Y, DH.

The One With the Words of Wisdom.

The time has come for Uncle Desmond to share some pearls of wisdom. Bear in mind Uncle Desmond has walked the earth for 18 years. And well. Its not very long. But it is his blog. So he does get to write whatever he wants.

Don't you just hate it when people start talking in third person?? Haha, i know i do. haha..

Ok, let's get along now. Here are some things I learnt in the past few days.. Wise things that should be passed from generation to generation.

1.) Don't blow into a cup of tea leaves, with the fan blowing in your direction.
2.) If you bit yourself and got an ulcer, be careful not to do it again. Especially at the same spot.
3.) When travelling on public transport alone, do not think of things that make you laugh hysterically.
4.) When you are walking home, and you are singing out loud, always check to see if there are people around you. If caught, be cool and pretend you knew the person was there all along. Smile to the person, while singing, if possible.

Ok. That's it for now.!!
Till next time, I'm Uncle Desmond!!!

The One Where All Fades + Decoded.

"Hopes were fading on Sunday of finding survivors after the roof of a packed exhibition hall collapsed in Poland and rescue workers pulled 65 bodies from the rubble." - of a disaster which occurred apparently due to the weight of snow on the roof, in Poland.

I was on my way back from my grandfather's, thinking of what to blog. I realised everything in this world fades. And lo, and behold, the first news i saw on my yahoo(Ireland; YAY!) homepage was this.. and it started off with this sentece. "Hopes were fading..."

For the first 15 mins in Ah Gong's (Mom's side) house, I was greeted, given the "dun worry bout NS talk".. then i became wallpaper for the next 5 hours. The unofficial Guardian of the TV Screen. Cos i dun go back everyweek like my parents and bro do.. Sat is the common day for the family to go back to fellowship. Only some come back la. So cos i dun go, i really dunno them well.

I used to go back but i stopped, cos of services. And so the familial ties became like pencil shavings.. They simply faded away. The only ones in my extended families, on both sides, that I would consider close is my mom's 2nd Sis's family.. They are the one of the nicest, the truest, loyal, people i know.

I'm not blaming the service for the widdening in gap. But i realised something, everything in this world has to be maintained. Just that, you can't maintain everything at any point of time. Some things have to go.. Only way is to reach a certain compromise.

Ties fade, Colours in books fade, Childhood fades, Frenship fades, Passion fades, Faith fades. Fade, fade, fade, unless you take an active step to refresh these things. Its true what the bible says, rather be cold, or hot, but not lukewarm. (VERY VERY VERY ROUGHLY QUOTED. haha..) Cos just being complacent, and just, being passive, well.. you'll just slide backwards after awhile.

Sometimes its good not to expect too much, cos expections are often failed, seeeing as how so little in this world remains. Many things (and not just people) come back and bite you in the as*. Stab you in the back. Our own judgement is highly flawed.. I admit mine is.

I'm like a Boy with a strucked compass, in the midst of competitors in alliances that i dun even know if i can trust. Who's the real murderer? Which room is a real threat? I'm in the eye of the hurricane, its seemingly calm, but everything else around me is spinning. I can't tell what is what, and how long more before everything comes crashin down.

Our own judgement is highly flawed. Cos everything in this world fades.. 'cept Him.
'Cept Him.

So depressing, haha, yea. But well.. i guess, while things fade, that's not gonna stop me from still hoping, trusting, and believing. I've stopped doing that for certain things and people. But there are other things and people who deserve my hopes for them, my trust and belief in them. So hope goes on. Perhaps even the reality of all fading away, would itself,fade away someday.

Someday.
That Day.

The One Where Everyone Says.

He says She says We say They say You say I say

he's like a
sailor in the
unforgiving seas
with a
strucked compass

she's like a contestant on prime-time reality television
thrown in the middle of 12 questionable-Others

we're like the Chased in a thriller
with a masked killer

they're
like the Hostages in
hostile
terrain
held captive
in unmarked
prisons

You and I are...
surrounded by the fragments and spoils of the Wind,
untouched, unharmed, but nonetheless present.

He says She says We say They say You say I say
there's much black and white

Who's to say there
isn't more grey?

The One With the New Template.

I've got a new template!!!! The other one, apparently, was too uncle.

This uncle however, managed to get a new template tho!! Haha, I got the template off blogskins.com. The searching part is a nightmare man. You're aimlessly looking at blogskins, one after another, and some are really bad, and some are ok, and some are nice, but not you.

Anyways, this present one is not totally done by the blogskin person. (and i'm very proud of myself!!! muhahah!) The initial picture was of this anime guy smoking. Anyways i got the present pic of webshots, thankyouwebshots, and did abit of editting here and there, and voila! New template. :))))))))

Can't stop grinning. Hahah.. cos i spent half the morning doing it, then i pressed the BACK button by accident and had to redo everything. But at least it was something to do. haha.. and i never understood how the new image templates are made, where you click on diff words and it brings you to a diff page of the blog, but the same blogwebpage. As in those new templates la.. I never knew how they worked. But now. MUHAHA, i've realised it.. so yes. i feel rather victorious!! :))))))))

:)))))) haha.. i can't wait for the day when i get my own farm. :))))))))))))))))))))

haha..

The One About Awareness.

CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE!

Our entire life is generously splattered with specks of Change. I was talking to a fren (X) that day, and somehow the conversation went in the direction of X teasing me about something. So i gave X a quick sacarstic retort, and X was pretty surprised at how I shot back. X was laughing when X gave me the I-can't-believe-DESMOND-did-that look.

And of cos I was abit stunned that X shot me that look. Cos I didn't think that I would have reacted differently when X last saw me. of cos X thought otherwise.

It's just goes to show that well, sometimes we aren't aware of changes we go through. And I realised how important it is to know yourself, and how you've changed. I tink people who are calm and composed when faced with difficulty, and are greatly respected by others are the people who not only know their audience, know their surroundings, but also know themselves.

I mean its like knowing your strength and weaknesses. I heard a comment once that made alot of sense.. that in business you've gotta use your weaknesses (not just your strengths) to your advantage.

MAN! Now i'm trying hard to rmb which show it was.......... i tink it was a reality show. BTW, as a really really offpoint side note, I tink nicole (from america's next top model) is so pretty.. Ok. she's not that pretty but i like that english beauty look. OH LIV TYLER..... somebody hold me... haha..

Ok. back. Yah and that boils down to self awareness. if you can understand how you work, you'll know what works best for you. I wrote once about knowing who you are in Christ. I guess its also self awareness, knowing your authority as children of God.

Self awareness. Self awarness. Self awareness.

Ok, one thing about myself that I'm aware of? I'm getting fatTER and fatTER each day. And my plans to go jogging, always starts tomorrow. Maybe i should just go now.




Or maybe tmr.
Haha..

The One With Ben, Jerry, and Dino.

Last Sunday we had lunch at erm, somewhere in Marina i tink. Anyways, its not really important where it is, (haha, actually its cos I really dunno where we were. Yes yes, I'm a neighbourhood boy, not a citykid.) Yea, so after lunch we went around looking for a Ben&Jerry's store. I had no idea they had such a stall honestly.. I mean, I've seen Haagen Daz's ones around, but BandJ's.. nope.

Anyways I didn't eat.. What I wanted to say is, Angel's blog (Go on, Right Click It! and open in new window cos you have to continue reading my blog finish first my friend.. ).. Angel's blog had pictures of the different Ben&Jerry's Icecream Flavours.. So Angel and I were talking, and we talked about the Fossil Fuel One, and I was telling her that there are real dino-shaped erm.... dinos. Made of chocolate fudge. So I was eating it that day and here's a picture of one dino that I found at my mini excavation site..

My Mini Excavation Site in my living room. Now that's a sentence I never thot I'd say.

But that's not the point. Yea, here it is. Its so small and its everywhere in the icecream. But its hard to take a picture of it without the sand, i mean, icecream all over it. I had to employ the dusting brush (i.e my tongue) to dust off the sand (really the icecream)

Anyways, apparently, fudge melts when you put it in your mouth for awhile. (DUH.) So I tried to take a picture of the other 2 dinosaurs, a Bird Dino, which kept melting so I couldn't take a picture. And a dino with many triangular scales, pointing upwards, lining its back all the way to its tail. That Dino, I couldn't find in my Mini Excavation Site.

So yea. We'll make do with this T-rex looking one.

Btw, the Fossil Fuel(clickit!) is pretty nice. Its lame, but the tagline for the icecream is Don't Burn It, Eat It!

So, Don't Burn it, Eat it!!
I'll tell you what you have to burn tho.. the fats you get from eating Ben&Jerry's. Haha, but its nice..

The One About The Rain.

Its been pouring for the past few days. I gotta admit, KNOWING FULL WELL the immediate protests i would receive from many, but I simply enjoy rainy days.

Yes, I know too that rainy days has its flaws. For one, travelling becomes a major bummer. What with carrying an umbrella just to cross one road for the whole time you are going out - the road between your side of the road, to the opposite road to get to the busstop. The clothes are taking awfully long to dry also. Clothes are being hung up everywhere in my house, its like living in a laundromat, save the washing machines and the coins.

But here are some reasons why i love the rain..

1.) The cool weather is amazing. You hardly get cool weather in the Sunny Island (or the Not-So-Sunny-Anymore Island, at which i cannot help but smile.) I've perspired so much lesser, almost nearly never, these few days. Cept my hands and feet. Which sweat rain or shine.

2.) The colour of the sky is amazing. One of the colours I love the most, is the colour of the sky/clouds before it rains. Its dark, strong, thick.. Absolutely astounding. The sky grows darker at the times of day when it should be the brightest. The irony is that, the sky grows lighter at the times of night when it should be the dark. I've just realised that! Amazing. The darkening sky makes it especially cosy, to nap, or to even read. Yes, I actually want to read in such weather. What would top of such cosy and inviting, (while at the same time, seemingly threatening) weather, is a good cup of hot cocoa. or chocolate as they say.

C.) The pittar-pattar is amazing. While it pitta-patts at such a fast rate, somehow or rather time seems to pass slower, inside the house. We could stand having it taken down a notch, in this formula-rat-racing country.

4.) You save the money on travelling, cos its raining and you can't get out. Nuff' said.

E.) I think that walking/playing/dancing/singing in the rain is something everyone should do at least once in their life. That is really choose to be in the rain, out of your own will. Not getting caught in it and rushing OUT of it. Its something I've done once or twice, but not free and unrestrained. Always at the back of my mind is, "my mother's gonna kill me." So yes, I would love to go walking in the rain one of these days. Of cos there's the prob of how the clothes are gonna dry since there's no sun for drying.

17.) Everything combines to set the backdrop for quiet musings and contemplating. I love that. Not that I think alot, just that, well, you keep more quiet than usual. You wonder more, and you are more grateful for the sheltar you have.

I love rainy days.. tho many don't. Haha, but MYWORD i love the rain.