Desmond and the Blank.

Give me oil in my lamp,
Keep me burning.
Give me oil in my lamp,
I pray.

Give me oil in my lamp,
Keep me burning,
Burning burning.

Keep me burning,
To the end of day.
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There's so much that's going through my mind these days.

Sometimes, i just don't know what to say, you know?














I've typed and backspaced so many times, I give up.
ECJJJG - I'm sorry.
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God, You know best don't You? Thank You.
"Even when (I) was faithless You are faithful."

Desmond and the Apprentice.

I hate The Apprentice.

I do. I really do. I don't like the show at all. It's so cut throat.
I just had the channel on my TV, the firing part? My word.

Seriously, being in school is the best. Honest. Homework aside, it really is a good place. Take it from me.

Altho it must be noted that I mean, being in school as a student. Not as staff. Cos that's just work too.

I hate conflict.
I do. I really do.
I run away from it.
Church's a good place.

:) thankyew God.

Desmond and the Good Neighbour.

My sis, bro and me came back home today, after dinner with our parents... And found out that we didn't have any house keys! So my brother has to pee, my sis is gonna go out, and I... well... mainly i'm just so bloated.

And we're thinking oh no.. our parents are not gonna come back that quick, and we can't be sitting outside for the next one and half hour or so. So we decided to check if my neighbour has our keys...

But auntie isn't home, and uncle can't hear us, and well... just when things are about to get desperate, my brother calls out from the corridor bend, "aunty jidi aunty jidi!!"

( Now, for the sake of Jidi, you will read 'Aunty' as SISTER. )

Haha, yes. Thank God she came back, and found the keys.

Initially she thought something had happened to her father, since my brother was so excited when he saw her, and its us 3 kids standing outside in the corridor.

A boy couldn't ask for a better neighbour, and God. :)
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Today there was something so different when I thought about God's love for me. It's a familiar feeling, that I usually tag to something else.

(For myself to rmb what..." Desmond, the familiar feeling was how you always feel when you think about supn. and lant. and tem.") Haha, i wonder if even i will understand next time!

But i thank You God. Because... You know la. Haha, No one. no one could ever replace You and the love You bring.

You make me very happy.

Desmond and Supernatural.

Argh! New favourite show man!!

I've read about it a long while now, since it first came out, and when I still had the time to snoop around the now defunct WB website.

SUPERNATURAL!!

Now usually with me, its,"Horror? No thank you.."

But its different with Supernatural... maybe cos its not that scary. (EVEN THO its still 3 mins of the show mainly behind the cushion.) And its just 43 - 3 min per week as opposed to 2 hours when there's no commercial break. It's not just mindless scare and shock tactics, cos its got the drama element in it.

And it's a known fact I love Drama.

I have a sorta list of shows I always wanted to follow but have never.

1.) Lost (only through readings online.)

2.) Alias (i have no idea what's going on.)

3.) 24 (cos ppl keep talking about it.)

4.) 4400. (that's a real show!! and i read about it online too. haha)

5.) Supernatural (hey!! I could be following it now.. :):):)

6.) CSI (argh.. way too long mann. since the last ep. and its on axn now.)

Ok, so maybe that's why I like Supernatural. Its drama, its something i can follow, after a really long time of aimless channel-hopping.

AHhh. TV.

HAHA

Desmond and the Last of 06', in 07'.

How surreal. I didn't even see it coming, at least i didn't think it would be that quick. But there it went. 31st December 2006. Just went by, with my dirty hands, and standing at the back of Sembawang, with the rest. Wishing each other new year wishes in whispers.

It felt nice.

I dun feel any older, any different. It is only the knowledge a new beginning has come that sets me thinking, "there must be something more (in the new year)(because it IS a new year)."

I guess that's hope then. Although mine seems to be more, Hope By Default. But I think it is realising and coming to terms with your present, and being down to earth about it. But also knowing that your present, is well... simply that. That 'present' must give way to 'future'.

And for us, we not only hope, but we rest, assured, in the knowledge that a Future is coming, and that our own futures are held in His Hand.

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On a lighter note, I went for the Movie Marathon, and it was packed. Screaming, shouting, laughing. Strangely throughout the entire night. It seems like pp took turns to sleep, and then to stay awake.

But the whole feeling behind the event was mostly, nice and warm. Like being in your house with all the free-walking about, and having to deal with siblings who kept screaming, and the like. But the fellowship was nice.

It felt nice. :)

Instead of having to deal with the dog-eat-dog-ness in the office.

I love the Saints. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!

Oh and Joy won an Ipod. Just had to etch that down in the desmond chronicles. So exciting!! Our region pp have won at the last 2 watchnights now! haha..

Desmond and the Double.

I KNEW IT!

Haha, i dunno if i've ever said this on the blog, but chandler is the one TV character i feel i'm really like. In the stupid things we like, the situations we have been in. Of cos, my family is not as messed up as his is, but my point is... so many similarities!! The good and the bad la huh. haha..

Sometimes when I watch Friends, Chandler would do something and i would think to myself, "HEY! that's how i would react too!!"

Of cos, i'm realistic also la huh. Haha, he is he, i am i, its impossible to be replicas. haha..

Ahh, its been a long time....
Up up and away pp!

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Arh i did write about it before!! In Desmond and Friends (The TV Show)

Desmond and the (near) End of Year Post.

Give us peace when we're torn
Mend us up when we break
This flesh can be wounded and shaking
When there's much too much trouble for one heart to take
Give us peace when we're torn

Give us hearts to find hope
Father, we cannot see
How the sorrow we feel can bring freedom
And as hard as we try, Lord, it's hard to believe
So, give us hearts to find hope

-Faith to be Strong, Andrew Peterson.

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This year has come and gone by so very fast. Just like that, its been almost more than 9 months in the army. As a little trivia for you, this would be the first time in these 9 months that I've actually wrote the word 'ARMY' in my blog. (as far as I can rmb.)

As much as it was short, its been really long, if you understand what i mean. Time passes by so fast, but the journey has been really long and tiring. Don't get me wrong, God has blessed me so much, and shown me so much mercy and grace.

I have a very good job, and most things in my life are going smoothly.

Sounds like I'm gonna have a 'but'... but no 'but'. Haha, it is as it is. God has been good.

In 04' I learnt "that faith is trust in the character of God to do what He knows is best" and that "God doesn't change." This year, the understanding that God loves and accepts me unconditionally has really hit home. Or is still hitting home.

Well, till the 31st, where 06's closing entry will come. Let me think what to write. haha..
Till then, Happy birthday Jesus.. erm. I usually ask You to bless my friends when its their birthdays.. maybe we should bless You now. haha, Blessed Christmas everyone.

Up, up and away!

Desmond and the Theatre Poem.

in the
cold
theatre
damp
curtains
hard
flooring
full
audience

the one-man show
goes on
unnoticed

casted director
directing actor

cd/da: heh

The curtains fall.

Desmond and the Grin that Stole the Sanity.

Sometimes, out of nowhere, something will cause me to grin uncontrollably to myself. Those times, I feel the muscles at the either ends of my mouth tighten up, and there I'd go, grinning like my life depended on it.

It can be over everything and anything really; alot of snacks left over in the office; lots of milk in the fridge; nice show on tv. Times like these, the monologue to myself begins. "Desmond, stop smiling like that. If someone catches you, you won't be able to explain yourself. You'll betray your neurosis, and we know your inwardly-neurosis keeps you outwardly-sane."

Of cos the grinning is part of the inward crazy that's spilling over, eating away at the normal, even mundane, exterior. Like termites eating your precious wood pieces, or like me at the chinese new year-table, wiping the table clean of pineapple tarts.

Still, here are some things you could do, when you get high and start to laugh at everything and anything.
1.) Take out your handphone, and pretend to be talking on the phone.
2.) Put your fist in your mouth, so you'll stop laughing.
3.) Just laugh out loud.

The bible says, "A merry heart, doeth good like a medicine." :)

Desmond and the Window-shopping Story.

Sis evelyn once told us of how, when she first came to church, she didn't know anyone, and she would come to church, listen to the sermon, and leave, without (really) talking to anyone... cos she just didn't know anyone.

And she came week after week, without talking to anyone. Until one day, on her way to sunday service, she detoured and went to a shopping centre and just window-shopped that sunday.

I can't really rmb what the moral of her story was, but what i did rmb was the gist. That as much as we should be in church for God, and to worship God... having friends in church is also important. Cos God did not make us to be alone.

How true that no man is an island.
Fellowship of the Saints? Yep. We all need someone to hold us up, to encourage us, to listen to us complain (once in awhile.....)

.. to be sensitive to us, so that we dun need to say anything...

Of cos we'll have to be that Someone, to someone else.
It's a two-way street. And it takes effort..

Effort to 1.) Be there for others.
2.) Be there, for others to be there for you.

"By this shall they know that you are My disciples, that you love one another."

Desmond and the public games.

Do you ever play stupid games with strangers, without them knowing they are part of the game? Haha, I do sometimes.

Its nothing much la, haha, but sometimes when i walk home, i play racing games with the people ard me. Cos sometimes they'll rush and rush, and i want to show them there's no need to be so hectic.. So i'll try to walk as cool-ly as possible, but overtake them. Then I'll slow down and let them overtake me, before I repeat the process again with them.

Another game i used to play; when i am in a bus, and the bus is leaving the bus-stop, i maintain eye contact with a person at the bus-stop and see who breaks the contact the first. Haha, usually i lose. HAHA..

Sometimes i play a rushing game with myself, like try to get home before 7, cos i have never done that before.. on a normal working day. Haha, so i'll rush like mad, trying my best to reach home without running.. for too long. haha, the closest i got was 7.00.01 ONE SECOND!

I'm so tired.. haha, i want to sleep. I can't be in church tmr cos i have weekend duties. Its a busy month, but i pray i will be able to go church still.. So far next week is the only confirmed can go week. Oh, i'm taking leave from wed to fri this coming week.. so... yea. rest before the storm. Haha..

God bless us. Haha, night reader..

Desmond and What Matters.

I am convinced that what matters to you, matters to God.

I've been wanting, awhile now, to write an entry about how God is a vandal... in a sense (don't get me wrong.) I see His handiwork scribbled all over my life. In little things like giving me favor in the office, while doing my weekend duties, so many many things... big and small.

I'm sure you've experienced it too. Everywhere you go, the Name pops up.

"God was here. 241006." on the walls at home.
"God was here. 171006." on the way home.
"God was here. 201006." on the office table.

Of cos i read something a few days ago, that put what I meant, in a way that's more appopriate. It went "God's autograph", as opposed to my "God's vandalism."

Haha, nonetheless, I am convinced that what matters to you, matters to God.

I really dunno how else to say this. I guess it means, God makes your problems, your cares, your anxieties... His business. He knows what makes you happy and excited, and He takes note of that. The things and people that are important to you, I think they are important to God too.

So take heart, if you're walking thru hard and difficult times, know that God is aware of it, and your situation is His business. :)
For the lonely, the worn out, the stressed out, the misunderstood, insert-your-own-situation.... rest in the fact that what matters to you, matters to God.

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Father God, s igh.i
d unn oho w.i
' ma tth een do fm y______.
Bu tthan kyo u.

Desmond and the Need.

I need You
No one but You
None besides You
Only You

- E.F, _______

Heh, dun even know the title to the song.

Desmond and the Flash Shortage.

I have no flash. Can't download it, can't set it up.

For a few mths now.

SO IRRITATING. haha i can't acess so many things! Like youtube, or whatever tube things that has videos that use a flash. Or col's tag board. Which I have to ask, why does your tagboard need flash arh col? haha.. and i realised today. That i can't acess the WB site too, cos it uses flash! At least parts of it. I think.

Turn on the flash please. haha

Ok, i'm in a very ______ mood. So its gonna get long, so readers please stop reading here.

I miss you guys. I dunno where you are now. You're probably right there. But its seems abit far. Just round the corner. Or maybe just right beside me. Yet you seem untangible. Like a senseless grasping of the morning mist. I'm sorry.

you can't begin to imagine how much i miss you. sometimes i think i might have an easier time with you around. at least i knew you believed in me, back then. maybe i'd fit in better. i have so much to say to you. but you know how sometimes too much makes it difficult to say anything at all. --

You told me He said, "unconventional." I cried so hard then cos i knew but i never wanted that. its so difficult. i miss you too.

Father, you know i love them. will You keep them safe? bring that person back to you, and just watch over the rest. give them so much grace Father. amen.

Desmond and the Filler.

Sometimes, there are just no words.

Sometimes, a tinge of sadness creeps up, unknowingly. Burrowing itself in your heart. And Sarah McLachlan's Fallen doesn't help to chase it away.

Sometimes the words bubble around the rims, but no push suffices in spilling the contents.

In times like these, you make up ostentatious words and sentences. As filler for a page that deserves an update.

But what ostentatious word can be filler for that little void in one's heart?

Sometimes, especially recently, I feel I'm running on Over-due Grace.

Its yesterday's grace. Its not a new thing. Its a left-over from yesterday, yesterweek. When I still remembered to fall at His feet and to spend time with Him. When I was in His presence, and He gave me strength.

And these days, these weeks, I've allowed myself to slacken. I forsake time in His presence, and the over-due grace is slowing flowing out, and nothing new flows in. And questions start to snatch at the opportunity to be that filler.

But only One can fill the emptiness.

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases,
His mercies never come to an end.
They are new every morning,
Great is Thy faithfulness.

His Love -- unceasing despite my unfaithfulness.
Thankyou Father.

Desmond and Milk.

Know that famous, Got Milk? ad..?

I love milk!!! I really do.. I used to drink loads when I was young, then I stopped. And suddenly the love for milk is back!! Btw, if you wanna get milk, dun get the Magno*** ones.. get the Meiji one.

Its so smooth, it's milk like silk!

Its been a long time since I've blogged. Serious blogger's block man. I've logged in many times over the past few weeks, and closed the window after I'm done with the net, without writing anything.

Even now, this milk thing is just a spontaneous (i dunno how to spell. haha) attempt to at least blog something. Its cos I'm drinking milk now.

Aiya.. haha be blessed. am missing out on alot of things that's going on in your lives. major exams, major environment changes, major personal and spiritual growths. but its so encouraging and nice to see the many ones grow, and see how God takes care of you, even if i only see it from afar.

He is so good huh, so stinking good.
Be blessed and have a great week..

Desmond and Cup Theory.

The prayer of a righteous man (or woman) availeth much.

How true. I just wanna take this time to just thank God, and the many people who have been praying for me, or have thought and whispered a small prayer to God for me. Thank you.

I've seen the favor of God on my life since i entered this new place.. Seriously.

You know how there's this song that goes, "So blessed I can't contain it, so much I gotta give it away?" Well, I believe that we are blessed as christians, and people around us will also start to become blessed.. sorta like the Cup Theory.

Haha, yea, developed by yours truly.

The Cup Theory goes like this. We are Cups. You can chose yourself la, I wanna be a blue-ish grey cup, with batman's picture on it. and the handle is shaped like a batarang. That's batman's boomerang btw.

See, God pours the Sprite of Heaven into us, ie the Cup. And the more He pours, the Sprite level goes up. That's good. But as He pours more and more and it overflows, the other cups beside you start to get blessed too.. as a result of your uncontainable Sprite.

I've seen this happen where I'm right now. We just got posted again, and everybody wants to be posted back to where we are right now.. and there are only a few places. 4 out of those few are from my bunk (including me la, THANKGOD.) And all my cab buddies are also in this place.

I mean.. God is so great man. Thank you guys for praying for me. Truly we serve a great and awesome God. To Him be the glory forever and ever amen!

Desmond and Friends (the TV show).

I dunno if I've ever said it, but i really enjoy Friends.. I used to spend my post A's days, watching episode after episode. Just kept on laughing and laughing, esp at Pheobe.

Ok. Show you my Friends!! Haha, picture-blog!!














Here's Pheobe and Mike at their wedding.. Pheobe and Joey decided to set each other up with their friends and go on a double date. Thing was Joey didn't have a guy friend. So he went into Central Perk and just shouted for a random Mike. BLAH BLAH BLAH, and one season and a few eps later, Mike and Pheobe married.

That's Joey officiating the wedding. He got his license to marry ( as in like the priest marries a couple.) He got his license off the internet, to marry Chandler and Monica, 3 years back. It was still valid so he married Pheobe and Mike, when the real priest was stuck in the heavy snow. Its outside Central Perk, the cafe where they usually hang out in.

Chandler and Monica were married in season 7. Monica is Ross's sister, and Chandler is Ross's best friend. This was in Barbados, at a hotel when Ross was a speaker in a paleontology conference. Monica's hair is so phomb cos of the high humidity.

Here is Ross and Rachel, who were a couple in season 2, and then they broke off. Through the entire series, their relationship is so complicated. On and off, still having feelings for each other.. dunno la. Aiyah... Neeways, Pheobe is behind.. Ross had a date last night, but he has no fashion sense. So Rachel and Pheobe are helping him pick out clothes.

My favourite Friend is Pheobe, cos she's such a free-spirit, and so "wonderfully weird", quoting Mike. She's got so much crazy antics la. Chandler and Monica are next...

I think Chandler is the TV personality that I feel most like. Alot of things la.. I watch him and I think to myself.. "hey, sounds like me." Rachel ignoring his lame jokes... "Hey that's like me!"

Haha, anyways.. Friends. So sad. No more seasons.
Well, another thing I like besides Bruce Wayne and Keating.

Up up and away!

Desmond and the Sidekick.

I was thinking about this yesterday, after 2 draft entries. Faithful readers over the months would know there are 2 things I blog passionately about. Batman and Ronan Keating.

Well, I was looking at a batman site, and I realised, as much as I like Batman, I dun wanna be him. If i could choose, I'd rather be Robin. I'd rather be the sidekick to the big man.

Maybe its cause being the sidekick, you have less responsibility. You have a considerable amount of power and ability, but you have much less responsibility. You have the room to mess up, becos you've got the world's greatest hero as your bestest friend. Superman, Batman...

You can be stronger than most of the city; still be a famed (minor) hero; still save lives. But at the same time, you can also be vulnerable. You can break, becos Batman's the real one the city's counting on. He's the one without the option to break down, and give in.

You can be caught, and bound, and you'll still have Superman flying in, saving you. ( Yes, Superman has no sidekick. Point noted.. haha)

You can still be human, despite being a (minor) superhero.
Cos Big Brother Superhero is there to catch you, and clean up your tracks.

I guess I want to be human sometimes. To feel vulnerable, and let down my guard. To be looked after and watched over.

But I forget sometimes, that I'm already sidekick to the greatest Superhero the world has ever known.

They call Him the Great I Am, Jehovah. El-Shaddai. Adonai. Elohim. Yahweh. Emmanuel. He who was and is and is to come. He the Maker of heaven and earth. He the Lover of my soul. Mighty to deliver. My refuge and my rock. He who lifts my feet, and goes before me. As pillar; of cloud and fire.

The Lord, my God. The Lord Almighty.

I'm a sidekick to Him. I am watched over, looked after. I'm given all power in heaven and on earth, and yet, I can hide in the shadow of His wings. I can be weak, cos He makes me strong.

I could go on and on. Really.

Thank You Father. You're my Superhero.
Thank You, for You watch over me.
What You've reserved for me, none can take away.

Thank You, that You watch over us, and love us enough, to not leave us the way we are. Thank You for saving us.

Praise the Lord, all the earth..

Desmond and the Escalator.

I was on the escalator the other day, riding upwards, and I happened to look to my left. And there I saw something that made my day.

Ronan Keating on the display panel of Semba*ang Music.

Ah, its not a hyped up thing, but Mr Keating's new album is out. Has been for quite awhile... I chanced upon the news a month ago while browsing through the net.

And then I turned my head to the front, and it was just like you see in the movies. The guy goes up the escalator, camera changes to the front, where it catches him coming up the escalator to the upper floor, and TA DUM!!! He sees his favourite superhero on the display panel of Popul*r.

Pure bliss.

What are the odds of Mr Keating and Mr Wayne being so close to each other?! (Actually, quite good odds, considering "they" are cardboard figures.)

Nonetheless, I was pretty happy for those few minutes.

God is so good. Stinking good. Just came back from the Asian Idols thing... Nice to see so many ppl involved. Its probably the first time in a long time where I can see the entire show, as part of the audience. I miss being involved in such productions, and all the rehearsals.

Ok, I have nothing much to really blog about so my thots are all over the place. I finally found a nice simple template, and I happily changed the babyblues picture to this batman storyboard, and swapped all the christmas colours for something dark-er. Haha, all the greys look the same I realised.

Aye nvm.

Up up and away!!