Desmond and What God Sees.

I asked God to show me what exactly He saw, when He allowed for me to be put through a trial. When He said, "Ok, I give permission to let Desmond be put through that trial; that situation," what did He see me doing way into the future?

I mean the Bible says that God will not put you through something that is beyond you; His grace is sufficient for you.

In other words, what God saw was probably me coming out victorious, praising Him and His sovereignty in the midst of the trial. And He had that faith in me, to rely on Him and not give in or up. And so He said, "Let it be done." And in His head He thinks at the same time, "Cos My kid will come through victorious. heh heh..."

Doesn't mean that what He saw will come to past. It can. And it would, if we don't give up and keep trusting Him to bring to past what He saw.

But trust me on this, sometimes it's so long and daunting, and we start to give up. I've got situations I'm seemingly stuck in, and it doesn't seem to get better. For one, my right hand is like... has some skin defect or something haha. it's cracking and it's spreading. It's so easy for me to ask, "Why God, why like that," and trust me, I have.

And these situations sometimes are so overwhelming and you're just at the end of your road. You fail and fail and fail a gazillion million times and you think this isn't a way a child of God is supposed to be.

At times like these, ask God what He saw. And perhaps you'd see Him say, "ok, put him/her through that period of trial. Let him have a slip in his health; let her lose her job; let his friends turn against him.

Because I see way ahead, and I see him coming out victorious. I see her praising My name. I see a promotion in the spiritual realm for them. Cause I see him failing, but I see him pressing on and keeping his trust in Me."

So this entry is for those out there who feel they have been abandoned; those who feel so guilty that they have abandoned God; those who have no strength to go on making the same mistakes over and over again...

God saw many possibilities that could arise out of your situation. But He chose to focus on the one where you came through victorious and overcoming, and because of that, He allowed you to be put through it. Choose to see that same one, and press on. As for myself, I'm gonna press on.

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 2 Cor 12:9
"We are more than conquerors through Him who loved us." Rom 8:37

God, glorify Yourself in our lives. Every part of it. Amen.

Desmond and the Waiting Room.

There's just something about sitting at the doctor's waiting for your name/number to be called/beeped, that's just very unnerving.

I think it's the vulnerability one feels cause...

1. he's not sure when his name or number will be called. (The I-Can't-Be-Certain-What's-Next.)
2. he's not sure if he'll hear his name called, especially in that funny accent the nurse has. (The Will-I-Notice-If-It-Does-Come.)
3. he's not really keen on the entire waiting room of 40 patients knowing his name. (The I'm-Kinda-Afraid-What-People-Will-Think.)

Haha, I have so much I wanna say about these 'The-s', but I'm kinda lazy. And yes, I'm Kinda Afraid What People Will Think about my crazy thoughts. Haha...

"Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
:)

Desmond and the Abcess.

This is a jelly bean.
This is a top-banana-flavoured jelly bean.

Anyways, reduce it by half, and stuff it into the tip of my thumb... and voila. That's how my thumb looks like now.

HAHA... yes. I'm gross. Oh well. I've got quite a graphic imagination. so yea. haha...

Anyways hopefully I get more MC. HAHHA.. like Joash Onyx, The Stone Pokemon.

Give me the desires of my heart, Lord. hahah.

No seriously. :)

In everything God, You remain sovereign. Hallelujah!