What a struggle.
I often bite myself when I eat. And thanks to my canine-vampire-honey-starred teeth, I keep giving myself ulcers. Yes. That is 'Ulcer', with the 'S'.
You see, when you bite yourself, your um... 'flesh' inside your mouth is pinched together, so it's kinda like one lump of flesh. One honey-starred teeth will pierce (ARGH!) the top of the lump, and the other honey-starred teeth will pierce the lower part of the lump.
Think folding a piece of paper into two, and then putting it through a hole-puncher. (ARGH!!!!!)When you do unfold the piece of paper, you get 2 holes, from one 'punch'.
Same concept ah, my friend, same concept.
What a struggle.
It's being placed through a hole puncher, and sometimes you're the one doing the punching and sometimes you're not. And there's just so many holes and ulcers and you're starting to think, "could your mouth ever be whole again?" Cos it does seem abit impossible. Afterall, it's yet another ulcer, yet another 2 holes in the wall of your mouth.
For that matter, is it even worth to be made whole again? Cos it seems that the same 2 holes could appear. The same cycle, the same fear of eating, chewing, and enjoying the splendid foods... the same food you've been desiring for days, suddenly turn into things you rather stay away from. Because a wrong bite could lead you to another ulcer. The Fear of the Repeated Ulcer.
What a struggle.
"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love." - 1 John 4:18
I believe You're my healer.
What a struggle. Yes. But there's a good end, I know. What the enemy intended for evil, You'd turn it around for good. What my own heart lacks the strength to do, there is Your Spirit's help for me. What I struggle with, there is a Perfect Love for which my fears of failures must flee when faced with It.
There is the King of Love, Prince of Peace, Father, Brother, Friend for me.
I believe You're my healer.
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