Saturday, 11 June 2005

Of shows that require to face your fears/hates/dislikes.

Over the past week, i've had to rely on TV to be my companion. *Heh.. who's complaining?!? definitely not me*. Of cos, i've watched things like Eye For A Guy.. (hey, i'm sorry we don't have a better bachelorette too you know)... Lost (seems pretty nice) ... Inuyasha (YEA!!!!!!!!!!).. and much much more. Of cos, i did little studying. I mean. sighs. the more you watch, the more you think.. that.. there's just so much more to life than studying. and doing well and getting a good job and being all the world wants you to be. K. I'm not going into that. Mr Boey Kim Cheng has already done enough of that for us. TO us. hahah..

Of cos, i was watching One Tree Hill that day. Its a show i watch on and off. Its abit slow moving.. but its really alot about relationships. And of cos struggles of a young adult. The episode i watched on thur really got me into blogging mood. But well.. i can't rmb why in the end i'm only blogging now. Anyways, that ep showed the characters struggling to be who the world wanted to be.. struggling to face up to their fears and they're feelings. The world is crazy. honestly. they expect you to do something. and when you do. they can't accept that you did. Anyways, yea. facing up to your fears is just. well. not actually as bad as facing up to the reasons why you're hurt, or you hurt others.

I mean, everyone has been hurt before. Guess what makes the distinction between a strong person and a not-so-strong one is whether or not, they can face up to their own flaws, to the reasons why ppl have hurt them. Its not easy, facing up to it. I mean, it means, above and beyond the hurt of rejection/betrayal/wadeva (THE RESULT), you also have to face the start of THE RESULT.. which MAY be becos of you. The MAY part is just. well. scary. You never know. Uncertainty makes people uncomfortable.

Perhaps this is the kind of facing up, that Caleb had to do. To first, admit the strength of his enemy i.e his own inability. Then to admit and acknowledge and proclaim that God makes up for His lack. And of cos, that Lao-Da up there is much stronger than anyone else. Faith in God removes the uncertainty that makes people uncomfy.. and replaces it with hope.

Perhaps i need to hope again.
And say, "Give me my mountain."

Of cos.. one big mountain now is studying. yuck.

BTW, i just wanted to say that i have really fallen in love with Inuyasha, and yes. Justice League. Haha, Batman saved the JL's butts like.. twice this week. That's like twice out of 3 missions. BATMAN rocks.

dude.
:)

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