The One About Victory.

His victory that is.

Before I went in, I was not as nervous and scared as i expected to be. I knew it was definitely God, because come on... Like shared in the previous entry, ( The One About Defeat), I'm afraid of even cockroaches. And all those other things. And going in is a much bigger issue than most of them.

But really, God really sustained me. He knew beforehand what was going to happen. He knew everything in and out. Prior to going in, I was starting on Psalms for my QT. I'm very irregular la btw. I confess. But anyways, I decided to start on Psalms, and one day before i went in, I reached Ps 20.

That was the Psalm that sustained me. When I read it the night before, everything just felt so right. So throughout those 2 weeks, i just kept reading that Psalm over and over again, assured that God saves. And He did. I'm not saying it was a breeze. For the others, they came out after one week, or after 4 days for CNY. For me there was no public holiday, and i went through the entire 2 weeks, feeling really defeated some days. God sustained me, and calls home everynight (cept' one night) kept me going.

Thanks to all who msged me and all. You guys kept me going. I really missed you guys alot alot alot. Thanks for praying to a God who hears, and held me each day. ARGH! I'm almost in tears when I think about His goodness; sending me help, being who He is, and giving me ppl to bothered to pray.

May the LORD answer you when you are in distress; may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.

May he send you help from the sanctuary and grant you support from Zion. May he remember all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings.

May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. We will shout for joy when you are victorious and will lift up our banners in the name of our God. May the LORD grant all your requests.

Now I know that the LORD saves his anointed; he answers him from his holy heaven with the saving power of his right hand. Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.

They are brought to their knees and fall, but we rise up and stand firm.

Oh LORD, save the king! Answer us when we call.

Ok, the last part doesn't really speak that much, but the essence of the Psalm spoke so much to me. Haha.. I'm really tired and black (really really really black) so I'll stop here.

But not before saying this -- God is faithful. Really. If there's anything about the big N which I've gotten out of, and i really really love, is that it brought me closer to God, and made me love my parents and family more. Everything else.. haha, really doesn't excite me that much...

JESUS!!!!! I stand amazed amazed amazed. THANK YOU. THANK YOU, for loving me. Please help me.

Amen.