The One Where All Fades + Decoded.

"Hopes were fading on Sunday of finding survivors after the roof of a packed exhibition hall collapsed in Poland and rescue workers pulled 65 bodies from the rubble." - of a disaster which occurred apparently due to the weight of snow on the roof, in Poland.

I was on my way back from my grandfather's, thinking of what to blog. I realised everything in this world fades. And lo, and behold, the first news i saw on my yahoo(Ireland; YAY!) homepage was this.. and it started off with this sentece. "Hopes were fading..."

For the first 15 mins in Ah Gong's (Mom's side) house, I was greeted, given the "dun worry bout NS talk".. then i became wallpaper for the next 5 hours. The unofficial Guardian of the TV Screen. Cos i dun go back everyweek like my parents and bro do.. Sat is the common day for the family to go back to fellowship. Only some come back la. So cos i dun go, i really dunno them well.

I used to go back but i stopped, cos of services. And so the familial ties became like pencil shavings.. They simply faded away. The only ones in my extended families, on both sides, that I would consider close is my mom's 2nd Sis's family.. They are the one of the nicest, the truest, loyal, people i know.

I'm not blaming the service for the widdening in gap. But i realised something, everything in this world has to be maintained. Just that, you can't maintain everything at any point of time. Some things have to go.. Only way is to reach a certain compromise.

Ties fade, Colours in books fade, Childhood fades, Frenship fades, Passion fades, Faith fades. Fade, fade, fade, unless you take an active step to refresh these things. Its true what the bible says, rather be cold, or hot, but not lukewarm. (VERY VERY VERY ROUGHLY QUOTED. haha..) Cos just being complacent, and just, being passive, well.. you'll just slide backwards after awhile.

Sometimes its good not to expect too much, cos expections are often failed, seeeing as how so little in this world remains. Many things (and not just people) come back and bite you in the as*. Stab you in the back. Our own judgement is highly flawed.. I admit mine is.

I'm like a Boy with a strucked compass, in the midst of competitors in alliances that i dun even know if i can trust. Who's the real murderer? Which room is a real threat? I'm in the eye of the hurricane, its seemingly calm, but everything else around me is spinning. I can't tell what is what, and how long more before everything comes crashin down.

Our own judgement is highly flawed. Cos everything in this world fades.. 'cept Him.
'Cept Him.

So depressing, haha, yea. But well.. i guess, while things fade, that's not gonna stop me from still hoping, trusting, and believing. I've stopped doing that for certain things and people. But there are other things and people who deserve my hopes for them, my trust and belief in them. So hope goes on. Perhaps even the reality of all fading away, would itself,fade away someday.

Someday.
That Day.

The One Where Everyone Says.

He says She says We say They say You say I say

he's like a
sailor in the
unforgiving seas
with a
strucked compass

she's like a contestant on prime-time reality television
thrown in the middle of 12 questionable-Others

we're like the Chased in a thriller
with a masked killer

they're
like the Hostages in
hostile
terrain
held captive
in unmarked
prisons

You and I are...
surrounded by the fragments and spoils of the Wind,
untouched, unharmed, but nonetheless present.

He says She says We say They say You say I say
there's much black and white

Who's to say there
isn't more grey?

The One With the New Template.

I've got a new template!!!! The other one, apparently, was too uncle.

This uncle however, managed to get a new template tho!! Haha, I got the template off blogskins.com. The searching part is a nightmare man. You're aimlessly looking at blogskins, one after another, and some are really bad, and some are ok, and some are nice, but not you.

Anyways, this present one is not totally done by the blogskin person. (and i'm very proud of myself!!! muhahah!) The initial picture was of this anime guy smoking. Anyways i got the present pic of webshots, thankyouwebshots, and did abit of editting here and there, and voila! New template. :))))))))

Can't stop grinning. Hahah.. cos i spent half the morning doing it, then i pressed the BACK button by accident and had to redo everything. But at least it was something to do. haha.. and i never understood how the new image templates are made, where you click on diff words and it brings you to a diff page of the blog, but the same blogwebpage. As in those new templates la.. I never knew how they worked. But now. MUHAHA, i've realised it.. so yes. i feel rather victorious!! :))))))))

:)))))) haha.. i can't wait for the day when i get my own farm. :))))))))))))))))))))

haha..

The One About Awareness.

CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE!

Our entire life is generously splattered with specks of Change. I was talking to a fren (X) that day, and somehow the conversation went in the direction of X teasing me about something. So i gave X a quick sacarstic retort, and X was pretty surprised at how I shot back. X was laughing when X gave me the I-can't-believe-DESMOND-did-that look.

And of cos I was abit stunned that X shot me that look. Cos I didn't think that I would have reacted differently when X last saw me. of cos X thought otherwise.

It's just goes to show that well, sometimes we aren't aware of changes we go through. And I realised how important it is to know yourself, and how you've changed. I tink people who are calm and composed when faced with difficulty, and are greatly respected by others are the people who not only know their audience, know their surroundings, but also know themselves.

I mean its like knowing your strength and weaknesses. I heard a comment once that made alot of sense.. that in business you've gotta use your weaknesses (not just your strengths) to your advantage.

MAN! Now i'm trying hard to rmb which show it was.......... i tink it was a reality show. BTW, as a really really offpoint side note, I tink nicole (from america's next top model) is so pretty.. Ok. she's not that pretty but i like that english beauty look. OH LIV TYLER..... somebody hold me... haha..

Ok. back. Yah and that boils down to self awareness. if you can understand how you work, you'll know what works best for you. I wrote once about knowing who you are in Christ. I guess its also self awareness, knowing your authority as children of God.

Self awareness. Self awarness. Self awareness.

Ok, one thing about myself that I'm aware of? I'm getting fatTER and fatTER each day. And my plans to go jogging, always starts tomorrow. Maybe i should just go now.




Or maybe tmr.
Haha..

The One With Ben, Jerry, and Dino.

Last Sunday we had lunch at erm, somewhere in Marina i tink. Anyways, its not really important where it is, (haha, actually its cos I really dunno where we were. Yes yes, I'm a neighbourhood boy, not a citykid.) Yea, so after lunch we went around looking for a Ben&Jerry's store. I had no idea they had such a stall honestly.. I mean, I've seen Haagen Daz's ones around, but BandJ's.. nope.

Anyways I didn't eat.. What I wanted to say is, Angel's blog (Go on, Right Click It! and open in new window cos you have to continue reading my blog finish first my friend.. ).. Angel's blog had pictures of the different Ben&Jerry's Icecream Flavours.. So Angel and I were talking, and we talked about the Fossil Fuel One, and I was telling her that there are real dino-shaped erm.... dinos. Made of chocolate fudge. So I was eating it that day and here's a picture of one dino that I found at my mini excavation site..

My Mini Excavation Site in my living room. Now that's a sentence I never thot I'd say.

But that's not the point. Yea, here it is. Its so small and its everywhere in the icecream. But its hard to take a picture of it without the sand, i mean, icecream all over it. I had to employ the dusting brush (i.e my tongue) to dust off the sand (really the icecream)

Anyways, apparently, fudge melts when you put it in your mouth for awhile. (DUH.) So I tried to take a picture of the other 2 dinosaurs, a Bird Dino, which kept melting so I couldn't take a picture. And a dino with many triangular scales, pointing upwards, lining its back all the way to its tail. That Dino, I couldn't find in my Mini Excavation Site.

So yea. We'll make do with this T-rex looking one.

Btw, the Fossil Fuel(clickit!) is pretty nice. Its lame, but the tagline for the icecream is Don't Burn It, Eat It!

So, Don't Burn it, Eat it!!
I'll tell you what you have to burn tho.. the fats you get from eating Ben&Jerry's. Haha, but its nice..

The One About The Rain.

Its been pouring for the past few days. I gotta admit, KNOWING FULL WELL the immediate protests i would receive from many, but I simply enjoy rainy days.

Yes, I know too that rainy days has its flaws. For one, travelling becomes a major bummer. What with carrying an umbrella just to cross one road for the whole time you are going out - the road between your side of the road, to the opposite road to get to the busstop. The clothes are taking awfully long to dry also. Clothes are being hung up everywhere in my house, its like living in a laundromat, save the washing machines and the coins.

But here are some reasons why i love the rain..

1.) The cool weather is amazing. You hardly get cool weather in the Sunny Island (or the Not-So-Sunny-Anymore Island, at which i cannot help but smile.) I've perspired so much lesser, almost nearly never, these few days. Cept my hands and feet. Which sweat rain or shine.

2.) The colour of the sky is amazing. One of the colours I love the most, is the colour of the sky/clouds before it rains. Its dark, strong, thick.. Absolutely astounding. The sky grows darker at the times of day when it should be the brightest. The irony is that, the sky grows lighter at the times of night when it should be the dark. I've just realised that! Amazing. The darkening sky makes it especially cosy, to nap, or to even read. Yes, I actually want to read in such weather. What would top of such cosy and inviting, (while at the same time, seemingly threatening) weather, is a good cup of hot cocoa. or chocolate as they say.

C.) The pittar-pattar is amazing. While it pitta-patts at such a fast rate, somehow or rather time seems to pass slower, inside the house. We could stand having it taken down a notch, in this formula-rat-racing country.

4.) You save the money on travelling, cos its raining and you can't get out. Nuff' said.

E.) I think that walking/playing/dancing/singing in the rain is something everyone should do at least once in their life. That is really choose to be in the rain, out of your own will. Not getting caught in it and rushing OUT of it. Its something I've done once or twice, but not free and unrestrained. Always at the back of my mind is, "my mother's gonna kill me." So yes, I would love to go walking in the rain one of these days. Of cos there's the prob of how the clothes are gonna dry since there's no sun for drying.

17.) Everything combines to set the backdrop for quiet musings and contemplating. I love that. Not that I think alot, just that, well, you keep more quiet than usual. You wonder more, and you are more grateful for the sheltar you have.

I love rainy days.. tho many don't. Haha, but MYWORD i love the rain.

The One with the Mystery.

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jr;[ ,r D'rgwe!!!

The One About (Gross) Public Transport.

Ok. Today was the first time this year, that I took public transport to CCK. On sunday, we had john, who is my lifesaver i've gotta say.. transport-wise. haha

BUT TODAY.

WO-HOHO. TODAY.

Today I got on the bus, as innocently as I can. And like always, I lifted my wallet to the great money-eater. The one which doesn't eat if you have the VIP pass - the revered Concession. Well, since the A's, I've not had my bus-amulet renewed. But that was fine.

Today.

Today, I lifted my poor amulet-less wallet to the great money-eater (or the GME), and I did not hear the usual, comforting chime I've heard for the past few years. No BEEP BEEP. In its place was the siren song, BEEP(S). ( S here stands for BEEP(singular), not BEEP(many times)).

The reality of Adult-Fare hit me hard. It is expensive to travel now. My heart goes out to all who travel with Adult-Fare. He's the worst friend you can make on a bus trip.

I've got an unwanted frieeeend. I guess that's a good reason to stay home, and cab more.