The last post of 2oo4.

Heyhey, its the last day of the year, 31 December 2004, (yes, i figured you already know its the 31st, but i get a kick out of typing it.) Everyone's going through and evaluating this year and stuff.

Since its the last day of the year.. 31 DECEMBER 2004, haha, i'm gonna write more details. Like today's a rainy day and i love rainy days cos they are lazy days. I had duck rice, chwee kueh and scrambled eggs with ham and cheese, plus spaghetti. Its alot haha, i know so i'm gonna say too that i tried to fit into my black pants that i bought a few months back? And i gotta say its tight now cos i'm much fatter now. I'm wearing my blue shorts and my bangkok hardrock cafe shirt that my cousin got for me years ago. It was soooo big then.

Gonna say that i'm terribly tired and longing for a nap and that we have watchnight later as Sembawang.

AND i'm gonna say that this year, the thing that i think of first when reminiscing, is that God doesn't change. Some people never seem to change too. haha..

Happy new year..

The One with the unexpected.

These few days have shown me more clearly how unexpectedly things can happen. The tsunamis, the earthquakes, my good friend leaving. I gotta say i think it stinks. Really. The fear of not being in control of situations? I dunno. Probably.

Does a new blogskin come as an 'unexpected' too? Heh, i think probably too.

Life is so unpredictable. Guess the only thing that would be steadfast, the only thing that never changes no matter how everything else changes is God. Haha, is God a stick-in-the-mud? Haha, no. I never got why they say He's unchanging, cos like He has new ways of doing stuff isn't it? Like, He did change what. Now He's not burning up half of His people who have turned away just like that, He's not opening the earth to swallow people who worship some golden calf. But i think its His character that doesn't change.

And I've learnt this year, that faith is trust in the character of God to do what He knows is best. Haha, kay, this super-duper line i give to mr muscular P, be blessed in all you do k. I'll miss you, as in.. we've been good friends so long le. Now this kind of bombshell drop on me, i also abit speechless.. So yah.

-glistening tear drip.- haha.. seriously, God bless k.

God bless the families and people who have been involved in the spate of events that have happened recently. I mean, how do you even start to console the tens of thousands who are mourning their families now? I think even you'll be crying when you see the many who are. I know its a crazy thot, but i wanna go over there and help. Like maybe help to give rations? I know i can't take bodies.. i mean, being so emotional and all i'll probably be crying before i can do anything. But yea, was half-jokingly telling my mom to let me go. I figure if i really can go, i'll stay there for the rest of my life le. Have missions works there or something. Can skip NS? K. sorry. bad joke. But well.. God is still good. No matter what changes.

God is still God, and i am assured in that man. He has blessed us sooo much. I mean the tiny red dot could have been wiped out. We are after all an island. But He had mercy on us. We have a great job to do man..

K. too long le.. just wanna say, be blessed everyone. Really.. take time to love people this day. You never know.. not trying to be sadistic and pessimistic but. Yea..

The One with the Christmas Cheer..

Jingle Bell Batman Smells Robin Laid an EGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!
The Batmobile lost its wheel and the joker got awayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!

Christmas is coming!! Just like hours away from it. haha.. k. i realise its bout 12 hours still but it IS still hours. Christmas is my favourite holiday of the year, probably becos the school holidays are together with it, and i feel like i really get a good break that comes with the Christmas holiday. Don't have to rush through celebrating it and all. All the family dinners and all..

Rmb my aunts used to cook those finger food that i absolutely love. Probably every year. Then one year i realised why she always made it for me. Haha, thing was, she loved it too. haha.. Yea. She gave me batman toys when i was young. EVERY YEAR. I had a collection. haha.. thing was, i wasn't that into batman. ( Haha, ok, look who's talking. I just realised i started this entry with a batman song. hahaha..) But seriously.. haha, oh well. then as i got older, she started giving me more big boy gifts. Yea, upgrade from batmobile to hotwheels. haha.. Everyear hotwheels. Cept' i didn't think it was so hot then. haha. k i'm lying. i loved cars when i was a kid. All sorts. Sports, vintage, big, small. haha..

Christmas to me makes the world a smaler place. That Christmas force pushes everyone closer to one another. Neighbours, relatives.. friends. Anything to do with Jesus just naturally oozes out love. I think la. haha.. yea. find it amazing. haa.. but my friends think i'm very cheap thrill.. like everything also amazing. haha.. but yea. really. Christmas is fun, presents or no presents. I love a white christmas!! K. maybe a blu-ish white christmas. haha..

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

The One with More Quizes!!

What number are you?
You Are the Peacemaker (No.9 )

You are emotionally stable and willing to find common ground with others.
Your friends and family often look to you to be the mediator when there is conflict.
You are easy going and accepting. You take things as they come.
Avoding conflict at all costs, you're content when things are calm.


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What Kind of Soul Are You?

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

Haha, this is a very flattering results. haha, i love it.. but i can't say its all true. haha.. i'm not always in a state of awareness.. unless awareness means sleepy/stoning.

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What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well.
An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly.
You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view.
A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary.

You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

Ok this one? Very very weird. True, i'm a lit student.. and i admit i think i'm not that bad with english. Not superb but quite ok. BUT i can't converse well with just anyone, and i dun explain myself well. AND i can't convince ppl that well. And yes, i can't rmb stuff.

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What's" Your Element?

Your Element Is Water

A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted and serious.That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also are deep.Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily.You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others.You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around waves.You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little more peaceful.

Quizes ultimately will remain quizes to me. haha.. but its fun to do once in awhile.

 

The one with the -GASPPPP-

You know, I woke up early today. But that's strange, considering I normally wake up later. Usually i sleep by 12 or sometimes 11. And i wake up at 9 or 10. Yes yes, i know. Some people are giving me high-5's and others are exasperated at my ability to sleep in.. Or to some, my inability to sleep in.. haha..

But last night, i stayed up with my sis to bake cookies. Haha, i tried! But you know, i kept melting the choc chips just by touching them. Dunno how my sister managed to not melt them. I? I push the oven tray in and out loh. Haha, stayed up till bout 3.20, and i'm like totally zoinked out. So i went to bed. And i woke up at 8.30. That's disgusting. People, on the count of 3, lets vomit. 1...... 2........ Ok don't. You'll mess up your keyboard. PLUS, vomitting your food is cause for another vomitting session, but becos you already vomitted you can't do it again. Save it for another time.

I realised just now that I've been watching less and less TV. And less and less time online. That's freaky cos that wld mean I have nothing to do. I wonder how i've been spending my hols, cos i dun take naps also. WEIRD. Haha, ok. maybe i only consider the living room TV as TV, and the dvd player in my room "nothing-to-do". Haha, yes. TV junkies don't change. Unless the TV show does.

I'll end. Oh and btw, 3.
hahaha..

The One with aftermath.. or afterecons.. of Youth Camp 2004

Yep, I'm back from Youth Camp 2004, 24/7. Haha, super shacked. It was a very unusual camp for me, cos i feel its like extremes, in terms of fun, experience.. haha..

I had alot of fun with my roommates.. of the extended rooms. We opened the linking doors so i guess that counts, joel, john, jerome and caleb part of my room too. Really a great deal of fun, and TV watching.. this boy from region D, job lee.. he's a great Tv expert man. Haha, he knows all the background of the TV shows.. Ok, can you believe it? We stayed in P3 and P4.. so conincidence right?? The P3 staying in P3. haha.. no one believed us when we told them.

This camp, was one of my most down-to-earth camps. It wasn't feelings.. crying, laughing.. but just one where, despite the lack of feelings and feeling God, it was one of just.. quietness and rest in His presence. This is probably the first camp where I've tasted so great the presence of God, without crying, laughing.. screaming even.

I was part of the group on the right.. like Sheena was. Haha, actaully i dunno if i was part of that group. But all i know was, that day.. I was behind sheena, and some people around me were just crying and screaming.. I can't describe God's presence that day as strong.. cos the word that comes first to mind is sweetness. I just knelt there, and there was a very addicitive sweetness around me. A quietness, and a rest. I didn't feel 'high'. I didn't feel 'love', not that God doesn't love me.. But i just felt such a rest. A sweet rest. And i'm not talking about me too tired falling asleep in altar call. I was very aware of where i was and what i was doing.

Anyways, stuff happened.. God's good. Food there wasn't really good. You know, Rompin food was better.. but i guess what i hated most bout Rompin was the travelling time, so I'm ok with CS. Regardless, despite not much of feeling God.. at least i'm confident of His presence. i Dunno how to describe it la.. of having no feelings but knowing for sure God's presence was there. You get what i mean.

Oh yah, i had a few scares too. Haha, on the last night. but that's another story.. Anyways, i've gotta say THANK GOD man, i got promoted. =) God is good. I did so much praying.. like saying God I have faith I have faith. But this morning before i called. I admitted to Him. I have no faith. Cos with my standards arh.. wah lau. So badly done. So i just told Him that I really felt that i was going to fail. But I also asked Him to help me trust Him, and have faith. So yah, voila. I'm promoted all thanks to God!

Btw, i passed econs.. out of maths and econs. haha.. altho you might have guessed from the title. I just give simply good titles. hahahahha..

The one with my dreeeeams.

I had a horrible night last night. I woke up so many thousand times. And each time i awoke, it was from a different dream.

The one i woke up with, and i wanted to say the most was also my scariest. I dreamt the X-men were captured. And I, Agent Des had to go to their rescue! (Trumpet blown now.) Alas, i saved only a few, killed only afew bad guys. The rest escaped. I was taking cover behind a wall, grabbing and shooting them bout 12km away, with my laser gun, which looked everything like a stress ball pointed on one side. Even pressing it felt like a stress ball. Then I turned around after they had gone to catch a breather, and to talk to my successfully rescued heros. The leaders of a witch doctor community were there!! They thanked me for saving them (while i was cursing myself), and said as appreciation, had to dab some blood across my forehead.

All this happened in CCK building after i turned around. I was like, OH MAN GOD!! They've turned your house into a house of witchcraft!! SORRY!! I shouldn't have saved them!! The witch doctor followed me around.. to the toilet. Good thing i woke up before she smeared the blood on me man.. who knows whether its demonic or something.

Haha, i had another dream.. Have i ever told you i dream of walking around in big places.. and really really really nice buildings. Big beautiful, stylishly architect-ed. In my dreams even westmall is transformed into a brilliant work of metal, concrete and colours. So this time, I find myself in Ikea, or a member section of Ikea,with a small pool. That's not the important thing.

The manager walks up to me after we stopped swimming and were about to go for a birthday party in the same building, and says, he needs my help. I'm telling you. this guy? Irritant. Every little infraction he questions me.

He:Why you put your stuff there?!? We need to organise ourselves!!
Me:I dun put down how to help you?

Then he signed me up for a part time job there. Keep a toilet register. SO SILLY! He says, every time I go in (or maybe its the employees), i must register. And under the WHY column, i'm to bluff the boss and write, Ordered Duty (or the like) and not say stupid things. Only then he was nice to me. As we were walking up the black marble ramp, I looked through the book. MAN. All kinds of handwriting and coloured pens. Turns out secondary sch kids also worked part time there before. They wrote poems, and little msges about the manager, and i thot of writing, Ordered Duty as instructed by stupid manager.

Then at the top of the ramp we reached the restaurant. The church campers were there, and i was late for dinner. No food. Only abit left. But it was good. The chwee Kueh? Excellent. A sister in my dream said it was some hokkein word. White flour sponge kueh or something. And in my dream i believed her. Now i know its chwee kueh. Superb stuff man. The chai por? Like roasted and friend till it was crispy on the outside, and bitting into it the juices just flowed out. WOW. haha

Ok. done. haha, still got alot more.. but i'm too lazy to go on. haha.. plus this entry is getting way too long.